Number-one bestselling author
for ten years,
i’ve held onto the emotions
that you fed me
throughout our time together.
you filled me with
so much hate for myself
that repulsion and disgust
became constant bedfellows.
i let go of that today,
before the new year begins.
i don’t need to hold to it anymore
for it was never mine.
though you gave it to me,
i give it back to you now,
casting the hate into the wind
so that it may find you once more.
there is no need to hold onto
all of the loathing you fed me.
opening my mouth,
i let it out like a cloud of moths
so that it can join the wind
that i am sending to you.
hopefully now,
the voice that i hear when I look in the mirror,
your voice, so cold and unfeeling,
will fade over time
and all that will remain
is a voice of my own.
Sweetheart, you should NEVER feel repulsed by your amazingly creative, talented and VERY sparkly, SPECIAL self…you are a supernova that only rarely blazes across the sky…someone who, to those who missed your magic happening, should feel sorely disappointed. L0ve you always, Kimberlee WS