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In the dream,
I am sitting with a nurse.
We are in a waiting room,
and everything is terribly bright.
She holds my hands.
I can feel their warmth,
and I know that I am cold.
When she looks at me,
I can see the wisdom in a face that looks far too young.
Her voice is like music when she speaks.
“I love my job. I help people to die.”
I nod,
knowing this already.
“It’s already begun,”
I tell her,
whispering the words as if they are a secret.
She nods and pats my hand.
“It’s okay to let go,”
she says.
“Even if its painful. That’s why I’m here, to help you.”
I nod my head again,
agreeing with her as if I understand what is about to happen.
“Will it hurt a lot?”
I’m sure she is asked this question all the time.
Even so,
I’ve been told that it will hurt a little.
Letting go of what you no longer need,
who I was that needed to survive instead of live.
I need to let him go,
I’ve been holding on to him for too long.
Trying to loosen my grasp of who I was is bound to hurt a little.
She smiled and gave my hand a squeeze,
then reached up to grasp a shoulder.
“It always hurts when we let a piece of ourselves go.”
I let out a small sigh, and she lets out a laugh.
“You were hoping that there would be no pain, and there isn’t. Not right away. That comes after, when your old self goes looking for what it’s missing.”
Flipping over my palm,
she traces a finger along my lifeline.
There are so many small veins that cross it,
each one of them holding a possibility.
“The person you were before you let go will still be looking for what you let go of. Does that make sense? There are so many facets to who you are that one is bound to miss the other from time to time.”
I nod,
understanding her meaning.
There will always be an echo.
“Are you ready?”
She asks.
I nod.
“I am ready,”
I tell her and I’m surprised to find that I mean it.
“Then let us begin.”
She says.
I love publishing my own books under my imprint Wolf Flow Press. The only issue is trying to find time to celebrate each time I put a new book out there in the world.
Queen of Swords is a special book. This novel took ten years from the original idea to get it out there into the world. It’s the book I always wanted to write. Back when I was reading Tarot cards in a shop, I had an idea for a novel that told the Fools Journey in Tarot, the story of the Major Arcana, but in a novel. I knew that the twenty-two cards of a Tarot deck already tell a story, but I wanted to set my own story against the canvas of the Major Arcana.
I carried the idea for the novel in my head for so long before I started to write it. I didn’t think I was up for the challenge. I mean, I LOVE Tarot, but was that enough to try and write a novel about my Fool trying to find their way through a whole story? The idea of writing a story that would be like my own living Tarot deck was thrilling and frightening to me.
The fact that Queen of Sword exists at all is a marvel to me. The book was written during the beginning of the Covid pandemic. In a way, I was on my own journey of sorts, trying to find some kind of direction in a world that no longer made sense. Covid had changed the world around me. It was still the same world, but it would never be the same.
When I wrote the first chapter, I felt like I was in a world that didn’t make sense to me. I was using Tarot to help make sense of the world and myself at the time. The only thing that made sense to me was Tarot and I had to write. It was the push I needed to start writing Queen of Swords.
Like the Fool, I shoved my fear aside and started to write so that I could lose myself in the journey. The whole book was a spiritual experience for me and my heroine Jackie goes through quite the ordeal. Eventually, she found herself just as I found my place in a world that was the same, but completely different. I love all of my books for what they taught me when I was writing them, but Queen of Swords is among my favourites.
When the novel was released, I did some promotion for the novel, but I was never able to give Queen of Swords any kind of book launch. I was dealing with health issues at the time, so spoons were low. It was enough that the book was out there in the world. That had to be enough for the time.
Imagine my surprise when George Sabbagh and Franco Dag reached out to me. They have opened a brand-new shop called Psychic Yoga Space. It’s a gorgeous space that feels almost like a temple. I feel completely myself there. George and Fanco offer many different services from Yoga to Psychic healing, Psychic Tarot Readings, Sound Healing, Shamanic/Psychic Sessions, Psychic Workouts and Psychic Meditation. They also offer a lovely variety of clothing, candles, crystals and plants, almost every plant paired with their own crystal. They are a one stop shop for all things Zen.
George asked if I would like to have a book signing at their shop and it was an immediate yes. I love the feel of the place. George and Franco live with their body, mind and spirit in harmony and their whole intent for the Psychic Yoga Space is to help you on your journey through life. What better place to reintroduce Jackie the Queen of Swords to the world again?
I’ll be signing books, talking Tarot and talking about The Queen of Swords. I’ll even have my deck with me. I’ll happily give a one card reading if you’d like one.
Here’s what you need to know:
Where: Psychic Yoga Space is located at 131 Bank Street, Ottawa, ON, Canada.
When: The signing takes place on Saturday December 20th, 2025, from 1pm to 5pm.
NB: There are parking spaces out front and parking lots nearby. Also important to note it is located on the third floor of an older building. There is no elevator, but the stairs are well maintained and there are railings all the way up to the space.
I’m really looking forward to letting Queen of Swords shine for a while in such a lovely space. I hope those of you in Ottawa will come say hello, buy a book and get your card read in the wonderful Psychic Yoga Space. I hope to see you there! You can learn more about the shop here: Psychic Yoga Space
I recently did an interview with an interview with Paul Semel about Minotaur.
The interview is wide ranging, and he asked about the inspiration for the book and what happens in the novel, whether the novel is mere fantasy or something more and how my cat Anakin may have helped with the writing.
The interview also goes into a bit of detail about my writing career and the other books I’ve written, how poetry had a hand in the tone of Minotaur. I also talk about what movies and games inspired the novel. Would you believe that when I was writing Minotaur, I felt like I was playing a game of Clue?
Read the interview to find out why! You can find it here:
https://paulsemel.com/exclusive-interview-minotaur-author-jamieson-wolf/
If you’ve read Minotaur, I would love and appreciate a review!
Smetimes,
I get lost.
There are too many roadways within me,
paths that lead into shadows,
covered by a gathering of bridges built over the difficult parts of my past.
It was the only way that I could cope.
I can’t let go of the roads,
much as I want to,
for they are part of the path of me.
Just because I have to hold on to them,
doesn’t mean I don’t want to relive them all the time.
They have thorns and they have made me bleed,
covering the roads with ink.
Stopping to look down at the memories of myself that play like old films on the dark grey pavement,
I find myself hypnotized by what I remember and equally perplexed by what I don’t.
Too much time is spent here,
looking down into what I can’t change.
Trying to find a direction,
I find myself looking upwards,
away from the shadowed paths that twist like snakes below me.
Instead,
I look for new paths I have found.
They reach like branches,
growing from the wooden planks of the bridges,
into the light of possibility.