Dear 2020

To say that 2020 has been a difficult year is an understatement. I’d like to say that the tagline for 2020 was “You sucked” but there were grains of light within all of the turmoil.

I think it’s a year that tested a lot of people. We had to learn to adapt to a new and frightening situation, something that threatened our health and our homes. The Covid-19 pandemic changed a lot of lives and it took a lot of them along the way. I had to learn to be even more careful than I was, adapting along with the rest of the world to wearing masks and to the new safety protocols that we all have to follow.

This has been a year of sacrifice. I couldn’t travel, I couldn’t see my family and friends. I spent a lot of it feeling cut off from everyone. It has been a year that has been filled with so much unrest, violence and discontent. For me, 2020 has been a year that has tested the human spirit over and over again. We’ve been called upon to change our lives and adapt to a new way of living.

However, it’s also been a year filled with gifts. These gifts had no physical or monetary value. Every video chat I had with a friend or family member was a gift. Every time I received a card from someone or an email was a gift. I found that during this year, I was reminded time and time again of when I first had my MS diagnosis and had to learn what to really be grateful and thankful for. This year has taught me a lot about myself and what I’m truly capable of and I’ve learned new stills along the way. It has been a year of personal growth and though I may have taken a step backwards occasionally, I always found a way to move forward again.

Though my depression has been a lot more evident throughout the year, so has my joy. Though I’ve struggled with fatigue and other personal issues this year, it was also filled with moments that sparkled and have filled me with light. Below, you will find the moment of joy that filled my year and made it sparkle so brightly.


In January of this year, I learned that my first stepfather passed away. This may not seem like a moment of joy, but it was. He had been suffering for some time with what turned out to be brain cancer. I took his family name when I was eighteen and I gained a family along with it. His passing taught me to not take any moment for granted, no matter what the circumstance. It reminded me that every life is full of cycles and though some may be more difficult than others, every moment should be celebrated.

We also welcomed Anakin into our lives who came home on January 2nd. He was so loving right away and quickly made himself at home. He has become such a joyful part of our lives and it feels like we’ve had him forever. It’s hard to believe that it hasn’t even been a year since he came home!


My new poetry collection was published! It sold really well making it to the number four spot on Amazon! This collection of poems contains every poem that I’ve written for my wonderful Husband. I had always wanted to do a collection of love poems and the time seemed right now one. I had no idea how much this collection would help me and help others during this year. I read poems live from the collection on Instagram and it filled with world with a bit more of the love that it needed. It was very well received, too! You can get your copy here:


My novel Starboy – The Scent of Desire was published by Cobblestone Press. It’s the second book in the Starboy series followed by The Color of Love. In The Scent of Desire, Alexander and Troy join a group of rebels to stop an oncoming war. Get your copy here:  

This was also the month that Covid-19 really became a concern. I started working from home full time for what I thought would be a two-week period. If we only knew then what we know now…


Thin Places, the Ottawan Anthology, was launched from Broken Keys Publishing. It contains my short story Finders Keepers. The anthology was well received and I couldn’t be happier to have my story included in the anthology. You can get your copy by clicking here:


Nothing Without Us, the anthology of own voice stories, was nominated for an Auroa award. It ultimately didn’t win, but that doesn’t matter. It brought more exposure to an anthology of stories that it very much needed in the world. My story The Descent was later reviewed by ‘Nathan Burgoine who had lots of nice things to say about it.

You can get your copy of Nothing Without Us by clicking here:

I also finished writing The Queen of Swords, my novel that tells the story of The Fools Journey from the Tarot. It went into edits right away and I’m so thrilled that I was able to finish a novel during a pandemic!


In June, my novel Love and Lemonade won the Best GLBTQ+ Book of 2019 from LR Café! How amazing is that? It was a surprise to be nominate and a wonderful and glorious thing to be nominated. It was such a difficult novel to write, tying up storylines from all three books, but ultimately it was a joy. You can get a copy of the award winning Love and Lemonade here:

I also had the honour and privilege of being put on a Tarot cards! The Harley Spencer Tarot deck is an amazing work of art and a lot of the cards feature real people. It’s very fitting that I was put on the Five of Cups. It’s all about the release of negative emotions and I’ve been holding on to so much for so long. You can read more about my thoughts by clicking here: and learn more about the Harley Spencer Tarot Deck here:


I got a new tattoo! This Head Space Tattoo was done by the incredible tattoo artist Dom Barbeau. It tells a story for me. The crystals in front of the mountain tell of the spirituality that I found within myself that enabled me to climb the mountain. I call living with Multiple Sclerosis and Cerebral Palsy climbing the flat mountain. Being able to climb the mountain, to accept the journey that I am on no matter how difficult it is, has enabled me to find the light that shines within and colours the world that I see. Getting a tattoo by Dom was a complete and total pleasure. She was awesome!

You can learn more about Living Colour Tattoo and Dom by clicking here:


I had my 42nd Birthday! It was a very laid-back Birthday. Normally, Michael would have taken me on a trip somewhere, but travel to distant places was a distant memory by this point. So we had an at home birthday celebration which was totally fine and lovely. My beautiful Husband got me a new office chair! It was such a welcome gift, especially since I was working and writing completely at home.


In September, Michael and I went to Perth. I hadn’t been anywhere for the whole year and I also hadn’t been to Perth since the early days of my childhood. We had such a lovely time and I had so much fun delving into all the shops that they have there. My favourite shop was a little store called ShadowFax. It’s kind of a metaphysical store. I was able to pick up the most gorgeous Amethyst and a breathtaking Angel Aura Quartz! I can’t wait to go back. You can visit Shadowfax online here:


The print version of Thin Places was published and Finders Keepers is released in audio format. It was so neat to hear my story read out loud by the talented and wonderful Paul Atkinson. Broken Keys Publishing had different people read the stories within the Thin Places anthology and it was so awesome to hear the story brought to life. You can listen to my story Finders Keepers here:


In November, I had the honour of being interviewed for the Coming Out of the Tarot Closet podcast. Seth was an amazing interviewer and we talked about Tarot, life and everything in between. It was so much fun delving into my Tarot journey. You can listen to the podcast here:


I write a novella as a gift to all of my readers every year to celebrate Christmas. This year I knew that I wanted to write about the pandemic in some way. When I sat down to write the story, I was surprised that the main character was a Tarot reader and she reads for clients online much as I do. The story ended up bringing me a lot of joy and when it was done, I felt a sense of accomplishment. A Very Tarot Christmas is a novel about a snow-demic, finding joy and also finding yourself. You can download it here for free:

So contrary to what I thought the year would be like when Covid hit, this year has been full of a lot of joyful moments. Yes, it has been filled with a lot of moments that did not bring joy, like having my first Covid test (thankfully negative!). However, it was filled with so much to be thankful for.

2020 has taught me so much and as I look toward 2021, I know that it too will be a year full of personal growth and expansion. I’m so looking forward to saying goodbye to 2020 and welcoming the beginning of 2021.

Sparkle on everyone!

Best Books of 2020

This year was a difficult year for many reasons.

Normally I find comfort in reading, in the words and stories written by others. To me, reading and writing are like breathing to me. Which is why it was terrible that I had trouble losing myself in the written word. I just couldn’t concentrate enough to let a story take me away. There was too much on my mind, too many thoughts that wouldn’t quiet themselves, so that I could concentrate enough to read a book.

Thankfully, there were books that were able to cut through the fog and they were able to take me on journey’s that I needed to go on. Each of the books on this list healed me in some way and they were able to take me away from myself and the thoughts that were swirling around in my head. I normally read between sixty and seventy books in a year. I was only able to read fifty or so books this year and each book seemed to take an eternity.

These are the books that stood out from the crowd and were books that filled me with joy in 2020.

The Invisible Life of Addie Larue by V. E. Schwab

I have rarely read such book that is both awe inspiring and moving. Have you ever read a book so wonderful that it consumed your every thought? That you were thinking of it even when you weren’t reading it? A book so good that you wished you could peel back the cover and live within the pages? The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue was like that for me. It just reached in and grabbed hold and didn’t let go. Even when I wasn’t reading the book, I was thinking of it and the story that it was weaving. It will be a favourite for years to come.

Home Body by Rupi Kaur

I finished this book over the course of one day. Throughout reading the poems contained in this collection, I had several aha moments and I actually felt seen. Rupi Kaur writes openly about abuse, feminism, self-love, personal acceptance. I just loved everything about this book and was moved many times while I was reading it. It felt like Kaur was reaching into m head an putting my thoughts down on paper. I love poetry, the ability to move someone and make them feel emotions with only a handful of words. I was moved again and again while reading Home Body. It will be a journey that I will take again and again with Rupi Kaur. I heart this book so much. It was like I was reading music instead of mere words.

Blossoms and Bones by Kim Krans

Kim Krans is the creator of The Wild Unknown Tarot turns to personal truths and the journey she went on. Blossoms and Bones is a memoir of loss, change and it’s a thing of beauty. It’s a hand drawn memoir told through words and pictures. I really took my time reading this and savoured every word, every illustration. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever read and it left me changed. The emotions on the pages within this book are so real, so absolutely raw. I am a different person for reading it. It’s a thing of beauty and a completely moving story. After reading it, I thought about what really matters in my life and my journey to find myself that has taken me to so many different places. This book will stay with me for a long time and I think ot it often.

The Unwrapping of Theodora Quirke by Caroline Smailes

a wonderfully gorgeous book! It’s so absolutely perfect! I laughed, shed a tear and followed Theodora on her amazing journey. There is so much heart in The Unwrapping of Theodora Quirke and it filled me with hope. What more do you need than a fowl mouthed St. Nick who takes Theodora on a journey through her past in order to show her what she is really made of? Why not add magic, unexpected twists and turns, characters that are so real you could swear that you know them. I will be reading this book every year from now on to get myself into the holiday spirit!

Hell Bent by Marie Bilodeau

I love books that can make me laugh, especially during a pandemic. Hell Bent is the second book featuring Tira Misu and I just love her so much. In this book, she is on a journey to protect the traded, those like her with special abilities. This book has everything! Fighting, magic, shape shifters, great characters, fabulous world building. It is such a great read and it’s so damn funny! Tira is a fantastic protagonist with a quick mouth and a quick shot. It’s not necessary to read the first book in the series, but it does help you get to know Tira better. Read this book and prepare to have  a fabulous time!

Heart Minded by Sarah Blondin

Sarah Blondin is one of my favourite meditation teachers on Insight Timer and I was keen to find out what she had to say in this book. It took me on a journey within myself and it left me changed. Each chapter helped me to look deeper into my relationship with my heart and with myself and almost all the chapters included a meditation that led me further on that path. It was a beautiful and incredible book that helped me examine my relationship with myself and healed me along the way. I’ve read this book three times already!

The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes by Suzanne Collins

This was the prequel that I didn’t know I needed. When The Hunger Games Trilogy ended, I was left desperate for another novel by Suzanne Collins. I was surprised to hear that she was writing a prequel and about Coriolanus Snow. Was a prequel novel about the evillest person in The Hunger Games trilogy even necessary? Turns out that yes, it was. The whole novel was gripping and it was so good to be back in the world of the Games. Moreover, it was fascinating to see how the whole thing began and how it became the Games that we read about in the original trilogy. It was amazing to see Coriolanus become the person we knew him as and to watch as his character changed and developed. It was amazing and I loved every word!

Death by Association by Madona Skaff-Koren

This book is a thrilling whodunnit of the highest order. The pages flipped by quickly for me and I was desperate to figure out the mystery. Thankfully Skaff-Koren’s writing is so good that every guess I had about the who did what and why was wrong. I love when that happens! I love the minutiae that Skaff-Koren works into the novel. Every small detail is full of red herrings and the plot is full of twists and turns. Madona’s power is in her characters and the strength of her storytelling. Naya is a diverse and amazing character and she propels the story along as you are drawn along with her to discover everything right alongside her.

Zee by Su J. Sokol

Zee was an amazing novel all about the nature of gender and family. It made me examine my own notion of what makes up a family and what gender really is. Its poetic writing took me right into Zee’s world and I wanted to hug them tightly and let them know everything would be okay. I *heart* this book and will now look at the alphabet in a different way. I loved the books structure, the characters and the writing. Zee is an incredible character and one that will live on within my mind for a long time to come.

Scorpion Scheme by Melissa Yi

Scorpion Scheme was flat out incredible. Set against the sands of Egypt, Dr. Hope Sze and her fiancé Dr. John Tucker go to Egypt and hope to see the sights, but they are drawn into a fight for their lives and a mysterious treasure. I loved this book so much! I was drawn into Hope’s adventure and taken on a thrill ride that came to an explosive conclusion. This is a fantastic book and really made me take a deeper look into the idea of justice, what is right and what is wrong. I loved every minute and every page. It’s a thrilling whodunnit that had me stumped until the end. Egypt came alive in this book. What a privilege to read it!

I implore you to read any or all of the books on this list. They are truly amazing and incredible reads!

Covid Fears – A Poem

It is the unknown I’m afraid of.

The force of it wipes all rational thought

from within me and I am left

with the tangles of what remains,

mere ribbons that flit and flap in the wind

where rational thought used to reside.

It is the uncertainty I’m afraid of.

I no longer know the face of my enemy.

Instead, it could reside within in all of us,

an unseen force that terrorizes

even though we cannot see its true shape

or know its intent.

It is the anxiety that I’m afraid of.

It beats inside of me like another heart,

causing me to jump whenever I hear it.

I want to hide even from myself,

but when I go within seeking shelter,

it is to find that I have forgotten how to breathe.

It is the worry that I’m afraid of.

It fills my dreams and my waking hours,

a constant companion that whispers things in my ears.

I’ve come to realize that my home,

once my sanctuary and my escape,

has now become my prison and my defense.

It is fear itself that I’m afraid of.

I am tired of mistrusting the steps

that I’ve taken to protect myself and those I love,

of looking at my friends and neighbours

with suspicion and wondering if any of them

carries the unseen foe within.

I don’t want to be afraid anymore.

FREE HOLIDAY NOVELLA: A Very Tarot Christmas

Hey Everyone!

I’m so excited for you all to read my new holiday novella A Very Tarot Christmas! I write one every year as a gift to all of you for following me along on my journey and as a thank you for reading my work. Writing can be a very lonely profession and because of all of you, I don’t feel so alone.

When I sat down to write this year’s novella, I knew that I wanted to write about the pandemic in some way. The only worry was, how did I write a pandemic Christmas story? One of my friends gave me the idea to write about something that had the feel of the pandemic and the story took off from there.

Here’s a bit about A Very Tarot Christmas:

It doesn’t feel like Christmas, even with all the snow.

It has been snowing for three years and the snow-demic shows no signs of stopping. Joyce would feel totally alone if it weren’t for her best friend Bruno, her cat Anna and her clients. She works as an online Tarot reader, trying to provide guidance to those that need it. The only thing she won’t answer questions on are health issues and how long the snow-demic will last. No one knows the answer to that, not even Spirit.

When one of Joyce’s Tarot clients turns out to be her mother, Joyce’s world is thrown into disbelief. Her mother died when she was a teenager. What could her mother possibly have to say to her now? She turns to Bruno for help. He tells her that she will have to open her mind and listen to what Spirit has to say.

Things are about to change for Joyce and she realizes that, though she often feels alone, there are ways to come together. With a little bit of magic, Tarot cards and cats, it might finally feel like Christmas after all.

You can get your copy here:

I’ve chosen to give it away through Smashwords because you can download the book in all the different formats for the different types of eReader. It’s free for you to download!

Out of all the holiday stories that I’ve written, this one is my favourite. It has everything you could need for your holiday: Tarot cards, magic, cats and a little love thrown into the mix. I really hope you enjoy Joyce’s story and that it brings the magic of the holiday alive for you.

Happy Holidays!

The Forest Again – A Poem

The leaves have been whispering again.

They have led me to the edge

of the trees and I try to look in,

to see past the dark foliage

but I cannot.

I look at my hands,

at the scars that still remain

from the last time I was lost

within the trees.

I look back at the path I took

to get here and I can see

what looks like stars,

sparkling every few feet.

They glow in the shadows around me.

I wonder if the starts were part of me

that found their way out,

pieces of my light

that broke away from my chalice.

I lean into the leaves,

feel their coolness on my cheek

then a bright spot of fire clouds my vision.

I touch my cheek to find blood

dripping from a new wound.

The blood shines like rubies

in the half light from the moon.

The whispering around me increases,

as if the forest is laughing at my misfortune.

I remember now: the forest has a price.

It likes to take but doesn’t give,

the shadows it holds are not solace,

but a place where there are horrors hidden.

I look back at the stars that line my path

and I wonder how I got here again,

the pull that the forest has upon me.

Why do I come here when I lose my way?

I stand listening to the sounds of the forest,

the whispering of the leaves

and the cawing of the dark birds within,

when I hear something else that

is louder than the noises of the forest.

I watch as the stars start to flash in tune

to the new music that I can hear.

I begin to follow that path home,

collecting the stars as I go.

They dissolve into my hand and I feel brighter.

The shadows from the forest begin to fade

and I realize where that music is coming from:

it is coming from within.

The stars are the notes of the song

and they are leading me back to myself.

As I gather the stars,

I walk further and further away

from the forest.

When it calls again,

as I know it will,

I will think of the stars and

the song that they sing.

I will be ready.

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