Arms Outstretched – A Poem

Once again,

we stand distant,

our hands held out to each other,

yet never touching.

This isn’t easy

and we aren’t meant to live this way,

with this constant yearning

for those we love.

Yet, even far from each other,

we hold on to the red strings

that connect us.

They are unseen by the human eye

but they are there, nonetheless.

Though we are apart,

we all find ourselves going

to the highest possible point

and lighting our flame

in the hopes that others

will see that light,

and know that we are thinking of them.

If you are missing me,

just take hold of that red string

that connects us.

You can feel my heartbeat,

reverberating along its length.

It’s my hope that you can feel my love for you,

and that my love will fill your world with light,

even if I am not there with you.

Just as you stand there with your arms outstretched,

know that I too am doing the same thing

and trying to make sure my light

is shining brightly

so that you can see me in the darkness

and know that you are loved.

Captain Maven and the Shadow Man – Chapter Nine

Chapter Nine

Gregory looked at Maven, his face a look of shock. “But I’m not a superhero,” he said.

“You will be tonight. My light burns brightest when you’re with me. When I was trying to protect you at your house? I’ve never burned as brightly before. I need you with me so that I can burn my brightest.”

“Yeah, one might even say that you were flaming,” Sandoz said.

Everyone looked at him with narrowed eyes. “Shut up, Sandman,” Carley said. “Read the fucking room, this is not the time or the place at all.” Sandoz put his head down and avoided looking at anyone. “That’s better.”

“Babe, I can’t go with you,” Gregory said. “I wouldn’t know what to do.”

“You don’t have to do anything. You just need to be by my side so I can protect you and also shine at my brightest. You’ll need to help the others, too!”

“Doing what?”

“Well, someone will have to help shine the lights.” Maven said. He turned to look at everyone. “We all know that Cracklepuss will try to hide behind the shadow man, but his shadows are weak.”

“Too true,” Tara said. “You burned his ass.”

Maven blushed and continued. “I figure enough light pointed at him will keep Max Shadow pinned down. If we make sure that he can’t create and escape into a shadow, we can keep him where we want him.”

“But what do we do about Cracklepuss?” Tara asked. “You know that he likes to work with electricity and can travel within it, using it to wreak havoc on the people of Ottawa. How can we make sure that he doesn’t use the same electricity that power the lights?”

“Don’t worry, I have a plan.” Maven said. “I think it will succeed if we all work together.”

“I still don’t think I can do…whatever it is you want me to do,” Gregory said.

Maven kissed him quickly. “Don’t worry, you’re going to be amazing.”

“When do we leave?” Tianado asked. “Look at them, they’re about to erupt,” he said, pointing at the screen filling the air before them. Tianado was right. Cracklepuss was gesturing wildly and yelling at Max Shadow. Tianado turned the volume up so they could hear what the two of them were saying.

“You were supposed to be this frightening man,” Cracklepuss was saying. “This terrifying monster made of shadows and nightmares. Yet, one involvement with the Maven Man and you’re a useless mass of black ink.”

Max Shadow made a threatening movement towards Cracklepuss but backed off before he did any actual harm. “And you’re supposed to be this super villain and all you’ve done is guard the fucking children and look at a shitload of really bad porn!” Max let a snort of laughter. “You’re not so big and you’re not so super.”

“Whatever, we have job to do. We have to siphon out the children’s energy so we can use it to set the city of Ottawa on fire.” Cracklepuss said. “Or did you forget how to do that?”

Max let out a low moan. “I’ve been trying!” They could see real anguish on Max Shadow’s face. Maven almost felt sorry for him. “I don’t understand what’s wrong! I can’t pull anything from them!” he said.

“Why doesn’t he recognize that the children are just shadows of themselves?” Maven asked, looking up at the screen.

“Well, these are not your normal shadows,” Tianado said. “They’re made from a piece of the children’s souls. They don’t feel like a shadow, not the type that Max is used to, anyway.”

Finley made a face. “That’s really kind of creepy,” she said.

“What can I say?” Tianado said, smiling. “I like to deal in darkness. At least the kids won’t get hurt, so it’s a win.”

“It buys us some time at any rate,” Maven said. “We need to get the supplies together and get over there.”

“Did you want me to break down any walls so we can get inside?” Sandoz said.

“Are we going to go under the cover of darkness?” Tianado said.

“How about a good flood?” Dez said. “I can always flood the building.”

“Those are all great ideas, but we’re not going to hide the fact that we’re coming.” Maven said. “I want them to see us coming.”

Finley and Carley both smiled at the same time. “Oooh!” Carley let out a loud whistle. “That’s pretty fucked up. Are you sure you want to do that?”

“Can you fill those of us in who don’t read minds?” Sandoz said.

“Sure thing. Here’s what we’re going to do…”

*

“Does everyone have everything?” Maven said.

Sandoz, Carley and Finley held up the flashlights, and Tara and Dez the search lights. Tianado used a high-powered camping lantern that worked with LED light. He had found it in the equipment room, tucked into a corner with camping gear that never got used.

Beside him, Gregory looked nervous. “I still don’t know what I’ll be able to do. Can’t I hold a flashlight or something?”

“Babe, relax. You just need to be nearby. We got this; I know we do.”

“All this light will take care of Max Shadow,” Finley said. “But what about Cracklepuss?”

“We take care of him the way we normally do,” Tianado said. “We’ll just stop him in his tracks and one of you can screw with his mind.” He motioned to Carley and Finley.

“Yeah, only that last time he seemed to like it,” Carley said. “Sick fuck.”

“Either way, it will give us the time to make sure that the shadow man is taken care of,” Maven said. “We don’t have much time.”

“Yeah, they look like they’re going to blow up at any moment,” Tianado said, pointing at the screen. Max was shouting at Cracklepuss, his shadowy body moving and shifting like a cloud of smoke, unable to hold his shape. Cracklepuss was screaming at Max Shadow, and there was electricity coming off of him in waves. The air was full of lightning bolts, and they looked in danger of burning the entire warehouse to the ground if they continued. Tianado turned up the volume and they could hear the shadow children screaming in fear.

Carley gave Tianado a shrewd look. “Gods, you’re good. Those kids are creepy, but I can’t deny you have great powers.”

“And with great power comes great responsibility.” Tianado said with a grin.

“Guys, please. Is this the time?” Tara said.

“Sorry, won’t happen again.” Tianado said.

“What do we need to do, Maven?” Tara asked.

“Nothing right yet, just be quiet for now. I’m going to open the portal in my cup of power so that we can all step through to the warehouse,” Maven said.

“Honey, are you sure you should do that?” Carley asked, worry evident in her voice. “You haven’t opened a portal so wide before. Surely there is another way.”

“None that will get us there in an instant. We don’t have time to find another way. Tianado’s shadows work for him, but he can only take himself. For this to work right, we have to have everyone arrive at the same time. It’s the only way.”

“If you’re sure…” The worry in Carley’s voice deepened.

“Babe, I don’t know if this is a good idea.” Gregory said. “Maybe you should listen to Carley.”

“Babe, it’s the only way.” Maven said. “I’ll have you with me to replenish my power. Your love will keep my light bright, okay? Trust me.”

Gregory nodded. “If you’re sure.”

“I’m sure. I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

They shared a brief kiss, then Maven took out his cup of power. Looking into it at the same time he was looking at the scene in the warehouse taking place in front of them. Purple light began to fill the control room bathing everyone in a violet glow. Maven took Gregory’s hand and gave it a squeeze, Gregory squeezed Maven’s hand in return.

The light around the portal grew brighter and the portal itself began to grow beyond the circumference of the cup of power. They all watched the size of the portal grow bigger and wider so that soon, there was no need to look at the screen from the control room. They could look through the portal and see Cracklepuss and Max Shadow for themselves. They couldn’t hear them, but they watched as Cracklepuss took aim at the shadow and was thrown back by one of the lightning bolts that were coming off of Max Shadow with increasing force.

“Okay, everyone remembers what I told them? Dez, when we go through the poral, I want you to use whatever water is in the air to try and freeze them into place. Sandoz, try to use the walls to cut off any chance they have of getting out. Tara, I want you to take control of Max Shadow’s mind as much as possible, and Carley, I want you to get into Cracklepuss’ mind, even though he kind of enjoys it. I want to keep them both occupied while we burn away at Max Shadow, okay? Finley, light a fire under anyone that tries to get away.” Maven looked at Tianado. “You work on getting those bits of soul back to the kids, okay? I’m not sure how long the shadows you created will remain intact once we hit them with the light.”

“I’m already on it,” Tianado said.

“Excellent.” Maven said. The portal in front of them had grown large enough for all of them to walk through. Maven put the cup of power back into the holder around his waist.

“What about shadows?” Tara asked, a note of worry in her voice. “We know that Max can lose himself in them, no matter how much we try to block him from leaving.”

“It’ll be okay,” Maven said. “With him frozen in place, all the light will be on him. There won’t be any shadows we’ll have to worry about.”

Tara nodded, even though she still looked a little unsure.

“Everyone ready?” Maven looked at all of them, and they all nodded or gave a thumbs up. “Okay then, lights on everyone!”

Everyone turned on their lights and the room was full of the brilliant white light. As one, following Maven’s lead, they all stepped through the portal.

Captain Maven and the Shadow Man – Chapter Eight

Chapter Eight

Maven had never been so happy to see Tianado.

They had followed Carley and taken the elevator down to the kitchen area. “What time did he show up?” Maven had asked.

“Like, ten minutes ago. I wanted to give you both time to finish up your conversation, so you’re welcome.”

“Thank you,” Maven and Gregory said in unison.

She gave them both a wide grin. “My pleasure. This guy already looks a lot happier,” she said, pointing a finger at Maven. “Hopefully he’ll be easier to be around.”

“Don’t I know it. He’s not too much fun when he’s all mopey, is he?” Gregory said.

“Hey,” Maven said. “I resent that remark.”

Gregory gave him another quick kiss as the elevator doors opened. Tara was there waiting for them. “Gregory, thank goodness. I heard that you were back.” A shadow passed over her eyes for a moment. “Please tell me that you’re back.”

Laughing, Gregory said “I guess so. Has he been that bad?”

“The worst,” Tara said. “It was really bad this time.”

“Well, I think it’s safe to say that it was the last time.” Gregory said, looking at Maven.

“Gods, I hope so.” Tara said. “Come on, all of you. Tianado was just about to tell us what he was up to while he was gone. I wanted everyone here before he told us.”

“I’ll just wait in the loft then,” Gregory said, attempting to slip back into the elevator.

“I said I wanted everyone there.” Tara said. “That includes you, Gregory.”

“But I’m not a super.”

“No, but that doesn’t mean you don’t have other qualities.” She winked at him.

Maven looked at her in confusion. “What was that about?”

“Now’s not the time to find out, honey. Let’s go.” Carley said.

They walked down the hallway to the tech room and when they entered, they saw that the computer had already been fired up. Tianado was sitting at the console, and he was making a digital layout of a building rotate in the air.

“Nice of you to finally get here,” he said, giving them a wide grin.

“You should talk,” Maven said. “What the hell happened? What was your idea?”

“Well, do you all see this?” He motioned up at the layout of a building.

“Looks like a warehouse,” Sandoz said. He motioned at the wide open floorspaces and the storage doors. “Like someplace you would store something.”

Tianado tapped a finger on his nose. “Right in one.” He pulled the camera angle back so that everyone could see the outside of the warehouse. “This is a place out in an industrial area on Queenview Drive and the warehouse is owned by a corporation, CPMX Industries. Three guesses who owns it and your first two guesses don’t count.”

“Yeah, but Gregory found out about the warehouse when he was being kept hostage by Max Shadow,” Maven said.

“Yes, but did Gregory save the children?” He asked. “I mean no disrespect, Gregory. I’m so thankful you’re back.”

“I’m thankful to be back,” Gregory said. “I need to go away and come back more often if everyone is so happy to see me again.”

“Dear gods, please don’t,” Finley said. “We love you Maven, but we couldn’t take much more this time.”

“Yes, thank you Gregory,” Maven said, desperate to change the topic of conversation. “What did you mean about the children, Tianado?”

“Well, do you see any kids there?”

They all looked at the layout of the warehouse again. Maven didn’t know what he was supposed to be seeing. All he could see was Cracklepuss. That sick fucker was sitting in what looked like an office that he had converted into an apartment. They could see a bedroll and sleeping bag, a hot plate and a pile of clothes. He was yelling at someone and stomped to the door, opened it and yelled something else out into the hallway. He slammed the door again and sat back down in front of his computer. Maven didn’t want to know what Cracklepuss was looking at, but Carley had told them already that Cracklepuss liked looking at some weird shit. Thankfully, they didn’t have to see it.

“There’s only Cracklepuss there, Tianado.” Finley said.

“Yes…and no.” Tianado said. “Here, take a listen.” He flicked a switch and sound blossomed to life in the room around them. It sounded like they were right in the warehouse with Cracklepuss.

When Maven closed his eyes, he could hear hundreds of children all playing loudly in the warehouse. They were screaming and yelling as children do. When he opened his eyes, he only saw Cracklepuss, alone in his office, however he could still hear the children screaming and playing. Maven looked at Tianado. “What did you do?”

“Well, your so-called shadow man isn’t the only one who plays with the shadows, is he? They’re my bread and butter and I’ve been working them for longer than he has. I’ve seen and done shit that would make his head turn.”

“But what did you do with the kids?” Sandoz asked. “You didn’t make them invisible, did you? That would be kind of cool.”

“Not really, but kind of. You see, I made them all into shadows of themselves. That way we can keep them safe.”

“You’ve lost me,” Maven said. “I think you missed a step. I don’t think the parents would be happy to get shadows back instead of their kids.”

“The kids have already been returned home. I just borrowed a bit of their shadows, you see?” Tianado said.

“Nope.” Everyone shook their heads. Tianado was often like this, leaving out important bits they needed to know when he spoke. He just got so excited that his mind jumped ahead and they had to back him up and ask him to explain everything properly.

“Well, it’s simple really. Cracklepuss had to believe the kids were still there. He and Max aren’t too smart, see? I took a bit of each child’s soul to make doppelgangers of each of them. I couldn’t just take them home. I had to make sure that the evil fuckers believed that they still had possession of the children. They plan to take their light and that’s where the shadow man comes in. He’s supposed to take it from them.”

“You can’t take light from a shadow.” Maven said.

“Well, you can take a bit because shadows are made from light. But shadows don’t have the amount of light that they’ll be wanting and expecting.”

“What do they want with so much light?” Tara asked.

“They want to burn the city down. I heard Cracklepuss talking with the shadow fucker. Max Shadow can take all the light from the kids and Cracklepuss has built some kind of fucking ray gun. They want to force Ottawa pay them millions, or else the city goes up in flames.”

“Except now that won’t happen,” Carley said with a wide smile.

Tianado tapped his nose again. “Yup. They can’t get much light from the shadows, and they don’t know it yet. We should get our asses over there and kick their asses.”

They watched the screen as a shadow appeared. It seeped into the main doorway of the warehouse. Maven knew immediately that it was Max Shadow, before it began to form itself into the shape of a man, but there was something off about him. Tianado zoomed in and they all watched him stagger and shift, man and shadow. It was hard to know where he began and where the shadows ended. The thing that drew Maven’s gaze though was the fact that there were holes in the shadows; there were holes in him.

“It looks like moths ate away at him,” Dez said. “Man, that looks painful. I mean, look at him.”

The shadow man was staggering and the shadows, far from being the rolling and majestic ones that Maven had seen before, looked haggard. He tried to think of what the holes reminded him of but couldn’t place it. It was Gregory who spoke up. “Those aren’t moth holes. Those are burn holes,”

“Really?” Maven said.

“Yeah, look at them. There are a lot of them. Remember when you used to try burning stuff with a magnifying glass when you were a kid? It looks like that, don’t you think?”

Maven moved closer to the screen and looked at the holes carefully. Gregory was right. He had burned a lot of things as a kid until his mentor had made him the staff of light. Until then, the light came out of him, and it had no focus. He burned things without even trying. It was pretty horrible. He couldn’t read a book without setting it on fire and it made getting dressed difficult. He’d had to wear fire retardant fabric for a while, and clothing made from that type of fabric was certainly not fashionable. His mentor had made him the first staff of light. There had been many variations and improvements since then, but before the staff there were a lot of fires.

He remembered the holes in his clothes and furniture had looked like the holes that now punctured the shadow man. Max Shadow looked terrible. That brought him a small moment of joy. “I did this,” he said.

“Well, he is repelled by light,” Tara said.

“It’s more than being repelled,” Carley said. “You fucking savaged him.”

“How is that possible?” Finley said. “Light and shadow can exist together normally. Why did Maven’s light burn right through him?”

“Well, isn’t it obvious?” Carley asked. Everyone remained silent while they looked at her. She gave them all a wide grin. “It’s because of love!”

Dez let out a groan. “Oh please, don’t give me that peace and love bullshit,” he said. “Love couldn’t do that to another person, and we’ve watched Maven use his light tons of times.”

“But he’s not a person,” Carley said. “And power is different when love becomes involved. Look at you when you were with Finley.” The room went quiet for a moment and a pained look flickered across both Finley and Dez’s faces before Carley continued. “Love changes our powers. It’s always been this way. Love just strengthens everything. It was the fact that Maven was protecting Gregory that made his light so strong.”

“Whatever it was, we’ll have to get over there fast,” Maven said. “Finley, do we still have those high-powered search lights from when we were trying to rescue those kids from that boat on the Ottawa River last year?”

“Yes, we do.”

“And Sandoz, do we still have all those flashlights from when we helped the police look for that missing girl guide troupe in the Pinhey forest?”

“Yep, I keep them with all the emergency supplies.” He said.

“Good, we’re going to need all of them. And one more thing.” Maven turned to look at Gregory. “I need you-”

“Well, I know I need you too, but this hardly seems the time,” Gregory said.

Maven brushed a thumb along Gregory’s jaw. “I need you to come with us, babe. You’re going to be a superhero.”

Captain Maven and the Shadow Man – Chapter Seven

Chapter Seven

Gregory was sitting in one of his brown leather armchairs, two glasses of red wine nearby.

Maven stopped in his tracks and the door closed with a click behind him. He wasn’t sure what to say or do, and his mind was a jumble of what he wanted to say versus what he needed to say. He went with the obvious instead. “How did you get in here?”

Gregory reached into his pocket and held up a keychain and jingled the keys like they were bells. “I have my own keys, remember? Plus, the security guard recognized me. He said that it was nice to see me again and let me in.”

“Oh, that’s…wonderful?” Maven was really at a loss for words. Seeing Gregory in his loft after all these weeks was really throwing him off.

Gregory patted the seat across from him. “Come in and sit,” he said. “I think it’s time that you and I have a conversation.”

“Are you sure that’s okay?” Maven asked. He was surprised by how nervous he was to have him here. He wanted to approach cautiously, as if Gregory were a deer he didn’t want to frighten away.

“Arnold, I’m in your loft. I think it’s you who should be asking me what the fuck I want.”

“Oh, yes of course. Um, well yes…” Maven made his way across the room slowly, not trusting Gregory to stay siting in his leather armchair. He sat across from Gregory and admired the Christmas lights he had put in the window. He wanted to look at their warmth, as it was easier than looking at Gregory now that he was so close to him. Maven turned his head towards Gregory when he got a whiff of his scent, spearmint with a hint of citrus. Gregory always smelled so fresh and clean, and it was what had attracted Maven to him in the first place. He had smelled Gregory while he was walking past him one night after he’d saved a woman from being run over by a bus, and that scent had filled his entire being. It was the same now as it had been then, intoxicating.

“Are you going to look at me?” Gregory asked.

Maven jumped a little and turned to look at Gregory. His hair was a mess as it always was and there was a dark brown curl that that looped across his forehead. Maven stopped himself, wanting to reach out and push the hair off Gregory’s face. However, as soon as he thought it, his hand reached out to do just that. Maven felt Gregory shiver as his finger brushed against Gregory’s forehead.

When Maven put his arm down, he stared at Gregory for a moment before trying to find something to occupy himself. He couldn’t believe what he’d just done. Grabbing his glass of wine, Maven took a very large sip and ended up dribbling a substantial amount down his front. Maven was astounded to see Gregory was smiling at him and very close to laughter.

“You don’t have to be nervous,” Gregory said.

“But I am nervous.” Maven said. “So fucking nervous.”

“Why? You’re a superhero, you can take anything on, can’t you?” Gregory teased.

Having his own words quoted back at him. “I’m sorry,” Maven said. “I didn’t mean that.”

“You did. You know you did, too.”

“I’m sorrier for what I said afterwards,” Maven said.

“What, that saving the people of Ottawa from evil was the greatest feeling in the world, and you couldn’t let a relationship get in the way when you loved being a superhero more than you could love me?”

Maven shifted and took another big gulp of wine, managing to swallow all of it this time. “I didn’t mean it quite that way,”

“Yes, you did.” Gregory said.

Letting out a long sigh and lowering his head slightly, Maven said “Yes, I did.” He looked up again and saw that Gregory was looking at him openly and with curiosity. That look always gave him wonderful shivers. “Why are you here, enjoying one of my 2015 vintage red wines, if I said things like that?”

“Because you have fabulous taste in wine,” Gregory said. “And I love you.”

Maven thought he’d never hear those words again. “I’m sorry, what?”

“I’m going to pretend that you didn’t hear what I just said and say it again: I love you.”

There were so many things rolling around in his head that wanted to get out, but Maven’s mouth moved before he could think about which words he wanted to say. “Why are you here?” Maven gave himself an internal smack. He knew he had just repeated his first question, but he was just so overwhelmed with all his feelings at that moment.

Gregory took another sip of his wine before setting down the glass. “Well, it was when you came to save me. You rode in there on your white horse-”

“I don’t have a white horse. I went there through a portal I’d created.”

“I know how you got there,” Gregory said. “But you charged in, guns blazing, and you’ve never looked so beautiful to me. The fact that you would come to my aid even though I was being an asshole was incredible.”

“Yeah, but you would never have been in trouble if it weren’t for me.”

“It’s always going to be like that though, isn’t it?” Gregory asked, “Because of what you do and who you are.”

“So, you’re okay with what I do now?”

“I was always okay with what you do. I just didn’t like being valued less than your fucking job. It’s always your job first, isn’t it?”

“It shouldn’t be that way,” Maven said. “I can change, I swear.”

“Don’t. If you did, you wouldn’t be who you are.” Gregory said.

“You’re okay with what I do?” Maven asked nervously.

“Am I okay with you risking your fucking life every day to save the lives of others? No, I’m not. Am I okay with you going out there to fight bad people who could do you serious harm? No, I’m not. Can I live without you in my life? No, I can’t. I love you, Arnold and that means sometimes making compromises. You infuriate me and you drive me completely crazy, and when I left this time, I thought that was it. I thought I would never see you again and yet as soon as I left you, I realized that I belonged right next to you.”

This was the most that Gregory had talked to him in months, and hearing all that come out at once left Maven feeling a little lightheaded. He’d pictured this conversation between the two of them for months now and it wasn’t going at all according to the script that he’d imagined in his head. “I don’t know what to say,” Maven said.

“Because I’m not saying the lines that you’ve made up in your head, right?”

“I had some really good ones planned.”

“Like what?” Gregory asked.

“I was going to tell you how I would rip my heart out and give it to you because it had stopped beating since you had walked out of my life. You could have it because it no longer worked without you.”

“Always the fucking drama queen, aren’t you?”

Maven looked into Gregory’s beautiful eyes, they were dark enough to hold his soul. “I value you more than anything else in the world. I hope you know that.”

“I do,” Gregory said.

“Are we going to be okay? We fight all the time. Is that normal?”

“And yet we always make up. Love is like that, Maven. We don’t have the relationship where it’s all sugar and spice and everything nice. We’re going to fight again, and I may need some space, but I’ll always be here for you. Some relationships are like that. The one thing that’s for sure is that I love you.”

“And I love you.” Maven said.

Gregory moved the glasses of wine, leaned forward to kiss Maven, and suddenly all was right with the world. Maven didn’t know how long they were kissing, whether it was five seconds or five minutes, but they broke apart when there was a knock on his door.

“Um, guys? Can you stop sucking face for a second?” It was Carley and her voice was muffled through the wood. “Tianado is back.”

Captain Maven and the Shadow Man – Chapter Six

Chapter Six

It had been a long walk.

They had walked back to the base. Maven hadn’t been willing to try the portal again so soon; using the magic of the cup of power and the sceptre of light always left him tired. Plus, Maven had some things to think about. He hadn’t liked the way that Gregory had been so angry at him, but he supposed it was understandable.

As if reading his thoughts (and knowing Carley, she probably was), Carley asked “What did happen between you two this time?”

“Get out of my head,” Maven said.

“Hey, if we have to walk home, you might as well tell us what happened.”

“I still don’t see why we’re not taking a cab.” Maven said. “People are going to stop us asking for an autograph.”

“No, they won’t.” Carley said. “I’ve turned on their blinders. They won’t see us unless we want to be seen.”

“Okay fine, but can’t we take a cab? Wait, I didn’t bring any money with me.” Maven said.

Tara let out a snort. “Do you think I’d remember to put my wallet in all of these pockets?” she said. Putting her hands in a few of them, she pulled out rocks, bits of string, pieces of pottery, what looked like coffee beans, fuses, a skipping rope, a belt, a small packet of seeds, a journal, a handful of pens, a small book of poems, a small jar of hair dye, bags of sweets, and, for some reason, a taser gun.

“Do I want to know why you have a taser?” Maven asked her.

“Probably not,” Carley said. “But see, no wallet or money.”

“Does any of that stuff come in handy?” Tara asked.

“You’d be surprised. Why don’t you have any money?”

Tara pointed at her spandex suit. “No pockets. What I wouldn’t give for your outfit. I would carry everything in there,” she said.

“Yeah, that’s kind of the problem I’m having.” Carley let out a laugh. “Since we have to walk, you can tell us what happened between you and Gregory.”

“I don’t want to talk about it.”

“Well honey, you haven’t talked about it for a few weeks now and you’ve been brooding something fierce. Won’t it help to talk?”

“It’s not good to keep emotions inside all trapped up,” Tara said. “They tend to come out in the worst kinds of ways. Look at what happened to Dez the last time him and Finley broke up. He kept saying that he was fine all the time and then he started crying. Filled up half the floors of our building with water before he finally admitted that he wasn’t fine.”

“I remember,” Maven said. “I had to swim through a few of the floors, and the electronics were almost totally fried.”

“Well, then let it out. Tell us what happened. If anyone can understand, it’s us, honey.” Carley said.

Maven thought about saying no, that he didn’t want to tell them anything about what had happened with Gregory, but Carley was right. If he didn’t tell someone, he would certainly burst wide open. Unlike every other time they had broken up, this time had been different. Instead of wailing in the arms of a friend, usually Carley, he had kept everything inside. It had been eating at him and he hadn’t known how to release some of the excess emotions he had been holding on to. He had to tell someone, and if he didn’t the feelings would fester. He let out a shuddering sigh. “Fine.” He tried to sound put out, but he was secretly pleased that they wanted to hear anything about what had happened.

“Well, it was just silly,” Maven said. “I don’t know why he made a big deal out of it, really. He was just overreacting, as per usual.”

“Typical,” Carley said. “What happened?”

“He got upset when I told him that I valued being a superhero over him and our relationship.” Maven said. “I mean, what’s so bad about that?” He was surprised by the shocked looks on their faces. Tara looked as if she’d been slapped. “What?”

“Honey…” Carley said. “That’s just wrong.”

“No, it’s not, we save people, that’s what we do. We help all kinds of people in Ottawa and the surrounding areas. Many people owe us their lives because of what we do.”

“Yeah, but that doesn’t mean we love what we do above the people who love us,” Carley said.

“Agreed, that’s cold,” Tara said, giving him a dark look. “I didn’t think I’d ever say this, but I’m siding with Gregory on this one. Normally he’s a bit of a hypersensitive prima donna, but that was cold, Maven.” She let out a breath. “No wonder he was upset. You basically told him that he was worthless.”

They turned down Gloucester Street off of Laurier and kept walking. “I don’t understand why what I said was so bad,” Maven said. “I mean, what we do is a valid service to this city.”

“Your problem is that you’re a little bit too much into the job. I mean, what do you go home to, now? An empty loft.” Tara said. “Being with someone when you’re a superhero is not an easy thing to do. You have to open yourself up and let the other person into your life, knowing your deepest secret. It’s not easy for the other person either. Imagine what it’s like constantly worrying about whether the person you love will die today.”

Maven stopped and looked across the street. He didn’t want to look at Tara and have her see that her words hit home. He felt them both inside his head, so he recognized that they knew how he felt anyways, but it was the principle of the thing. “I’d never thought about it that way,” he said.

“We know you didn’t. Now you do.” Carley said. “You just have to decide how to move forward.”

“I don’t see how there’s any way I can move forward. You saw him. Gregory’s fucking pissed at me.”

“Nah, he loves you.” Tara said.

“You could read his thoughts, I assume.”

“No, honey, we could see it in the way he looked at you. He’s fucking hurting without you. I’m surprised you don’t see that.” Carley said.

“I was a little too busy trying to fry a shadow man if you didn’t notice.”

“Yes, but when you said that he was the man you loved, Gregory’s face softened,” Tara said. “He still loves you.”

They turned off of Gloucester Street and onto Nepean Street. They walked by an apartment building where most of the balconies were decorated with Christmas lights. They shone brightly in the fading daylight. Maven loved this time of year and loved that the light was a tonic against the darkness. His light shone brighter when Gregory was in his life. Maven felt lighter when Gregory’s love filled him, and he wondered how he could have fucked things up so severely.

“Honey, you have to talk to him,” Carley said.

“He doesn’t want to hear what I have to say. You saw what happened today. He no longer feels the same way as I do about him.”

“And yet you told him you love what you do more than you love him.” Tara said. They approached their building, and the security guard came to meet them. He ushered them into the building, locking the door behind them. “Maybe you could write to him, see if he’ll talk to you that way.”

“I guess…” Maven didn’t think that was the way to go about it. “We’ve got enough to worry about for now. We still don’t know where Tianado went, we’re no closer to finding Cracklepuss, and we don’t know how to find Max Shadow.”

“You know how to find Max Shadow,” Carley said. “Both times you’ve found him just by looking for him. It’s like the two of you are linked. You just have to look for him again.”

“I guess,” Maven said. They took the elevator up to the main floor and Tara and Carley got out. “I’m just going to go and relax for a moment. I need to recharge after using all that light earlier.”

Tara gave him a knowing look. “Sure, you go and take it easy. We’ll reconvene later. I’ll see if anyone has heard from Tianado.”

“You go and take a few minutes to regroup, and we’ll be waiting for you in on the tech floor in an hour or so. Okay?” Carley said.

“Okay,” Maven said, giving them both a grateful smile. “Thank you for today. I couldn’t have done it without you.”

“We know,” Tara said. She touched his cheek softly. “Come on down when you’re ready.”

“Okay.” Maven said. He took the elevator up to his floor. He tapped his foot impatiently, then let out a breath of relief when the doors opened. He stepped out into the hallway, slid his key into the lock, and entered his apartment.

Except there was already someone inside.