Number-one bestselling author
This poem is for Sharon who is wonderous!
You are made of stars.
There is a music that sings
every time you enter a room.
I’ve come to think of it
as the music stars make
when they are given
an earthly form.
You are made of light.
There is a brilliance that shines
every time you smile.
I’ve come to think of it
as actual magic that
not many people
can preform.
You are made of magic.
There is a light that shines
every time you laugh.
I’ve come to think of it
as a spell so powerful
that it needs no words.
We are blessed to know you,
to call you friend and family.
You have given us so much joy
through the act of knowing you.
You are a star given shape,
capable of actual magic
and creating light in the darkness.
You are all of this and more
and I know that my life,
as well as the lives of others,
are made brighter because of
you.
The light that you carry
burns so brightly.
Being near you,
our skin is bathed in gold
and we can feel its warmth.
However, we are not in normal times.
Now, as we remain apart,
I recall what you taught me:
“When I love someone, I tell them.”
That is a lesson that I have held on to,
one that I recall again and again
during this time that the world grieves.
When I think of the words
that you taught me,
I can picture you clearly in my mind
and I can feel warmth glow within me.
You have made a difference in the world
and within my heart.
You have given me
what I needed in order
to open my heart wide.
You have given me
the keys to light and love
and though they have no physical form,
I carry them within me.
Every time I tell someone
that I love them,
magic is born anew.
You have shown me
how to create magic of my own.
I am forever thankful
and I wanted you to know
I love you.
There are days
where I am lost
within myself.
I find my path blocked
by a grove of trees
that surround me.
There doesn’t seem to be
any way past them,
though I can see the sun
as it peeks through.
There is a path
underneath my feet.
Turning away from the trees,
I follow that path.
It is made out of a multitude of things,
like broken glass,
crumpled paper that is covered in writing,
a rainbow of lost pens,
or random trinkets and ticket stubs.
I look up from the path
and notice that there are people
that I’ve left behind.
They linger within me still,
or the mark they left on me does.
I can also see versions of me,
everyone that I’ve been,
or tried to be.
These stand like shadowy scarecrows,
neither real or unreal.
Further still,
I can see the mountains that I know so well.
As I approach them,
they start to shrink,
for I’ve scaled them before,
so many times,
that I know every nook and cranny,
every hole that I’ve had to cling to
for temporary safety.
I put the small pebble in my pocket
for this path and the mountain
are part of the same path.
It feels heavy and I look for something
to help make it lighter.
I bend down and pick up one piece of glass,
a small piece that looks
like a piece of eggshell from a robin’s nest.
It reminds me of how I broke free,
how I was able to break through.
The piece is shaped like a feather.
I put this in my pocket, too.
Further down the path,
I come upon another small grove,
but these trees are different.
They aren’t covered in dark leaves
that whisper lies and half truths to me.
Though their branches seem bare at first,
I notice that hanging within them
are polaroid photos
of everyone that I love.
The photos contain moments
that I had with them,
ones that brought me joy.
The joyful moments are hidden here,
away from the dark forest
that surrounds me.
That is so that when I go back along the path,
towards the trees that
wish to keep me here,
I will be able to carry light back with me
that will combat the dark.
Looking at the photos,
I pluck one of my most cherished photos.
It is a photo taken at my happiest moment.
I clutch it to my chest and slide it into my pocket.
the feelings from that moment
fill me full of light.
I can feel the three charms against the darkness
fluttering above my heart,
excited for their journey
as I walked towards the trees
and follow the path
as it brings me back to myself.
I follow the path,
knowing that I am no longer
lost.
I’m so excited!
I’ll be taking part in the Renaissance Press Fall Virtual Conference! How awesome is that? You can learn more about it here: https://pressesrenaissancepress.ca/events/renaissance-virtual-conference/full-program-and-registration/
I took part in the previous virtual conference and I couldn’t be happier to be taking part in the Fall one! Check it out, I’m in the following panels:
Saturday October 24 2020
10 AM- 11 AM EDT: Dystopian and Utopian fiction
Do Utopian and Dystopian fiction stories continue to be relevant in the face of current events? Are these categories still appropriate and of interest? How do they relate to post-apocalyptic stories, pandemic fiction, hope punk, grim/dark?
Stephen Graham King, Jamieson Wolf, John Haas, Jack Briglio, Dominic Bercier, Elizabeth Hirst (m)
1 PM – 2 PM EDT: Ableist, me? That’s cr*zy!
Ableist language and narratives are incredibly pervasive. This panel explores how even disabled, Deaf, neurodiverse authors have to unlearn ableist narratives that influence the everyday terms we use.
Cait Gordon (m), Dianna Gunn, Jennifer Lee Rossman, Jamieson Wolf, Madona Skaff-Koren
Sunday October 25 2020
11:30 AM – 12 30 PM Family of choice.
How have chosen family narratives evolved over the past few years? What remains to be done in terms of representation, and what has been done well (or less well)? Why are chosen family narratives still relevant and important?
Su J Sokol, Angela Misri (m), Avi Silver, Nathan Caro Fréchette, Jamieson Wolf
Make sure to register so you can attend! And the best news of all? It’s all free! I know, right? Register here and learn all about the panels that are being offered!
See you there!