I don’t remember
feeling safe within my own body.
I was always treated as if I was delicate,
as if I would break.
I would look at myself in the mirror,
trying to see the glass
that was under my skin.
I was treated like a freak,
told that I was weak,
that I wasn’t going to amount
to anything in the world around me.
I was treated like the elephant man
at school, people making fun
of the way I walked and ran.
I was told that I should feel shame
for the difficulty that I brought to my family.
I do remember the men who would point out
what they thought was wrong with me,
the reminders that I should be grateful
for their attention and for a long time,
I wondered if I was even worthy of love.
And then I met you.
I don’t remember that feeling of being seen before,
of having someone know me so deeply
that they know me better than I know myself.
I don’t remember the moment that I fell
in love with you because I don’t think
there ever was one single moment.
I think that I just loved you completely
from the moment that I met you
and it took me a while to realize it.
You have never looked at me
as something broken or fragile,
someone who needed to be pitied
or offered pity.
Instead, you see me as a whole person,
capable of anything that I set my mind to.
You believe in me when I don’t believe in myself.
When I look at myself in the mirror,
I don’t see the glass under my skin anymore
because you don’t see me as fragile.
You see me and love me completely, just as I am
and I love you more than words can say.
Even though I know there was a time
before you and I found each other,
I can’t remember my life without you
and can’t wait to see
what the future will bring.
So wonderful you found the right person ❤