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I sat there,
a stranger inside
my own body.
I had a choice
but I didn’t
know how to
make it. I
didn’t know. I
was lost within
myself and what
I had become.
It was as
if my body
had become a
labyrinth and I
had no way
of knowing how
to find the
exit. The forest
was there, the
trees lush and
green inside my
apartment. They were
beautiful but I
knew the trees
deadly. Their leaves
were tinged in
blood. I ignored
them and the
whisper of their
call, turned away
from the lure
of the darkness
that I could
lose myself in.
Everything was finished
and I had nothing.
“That’s not true, though, is it?”
A small voice
spoke from the
trees. I looked
up into the
leaves and saw
a bright eyed
owl. It regarded
me with eyes
that shone like
gold. I shook
my head to
clear my vision.
The trees and
the owl remained.
“How can you hear my thoughts?”
The owl ruffled
it’s feathers and
regarded me with
a wise stare.
“How can I not when you think so loudly? How long has it been since you’ve been out of this apartment?”
I shook my head.
“I don’t know. I go out for work.”
“But when was the last time you went out to simply live?”
I didn’t want
to answer its
questions so I
asked it one
of my own.
“How can you come from the dark forest? There isn’t anything beautiful in there.”
The owl laughed,
making a soft
hooting noise that
was like music.
“Oh, you know the forest so well do you? You know only the shadows of the trees, not the beauty that lies within. For even in darkness, there must be balance.”
I shook my
head, so sure
that I knew
more than the owl.
“The forest is only darkness. That’s all it has ever been.”
“Yes, but darkness comes from the absence of light.”
“What does that mean?”
“If it’s darkness that has you down, make light to chase away the shadows.”
“I’ve forgotten how. I’m too far inside the labyrinth and can’t find my way out.”
The owl ruffled
her feathers and
blinked her eyes
at me in
with impatience. She
flew down off
of the branch
and perched on
my leg. She
moved forward and
pecked at my
chest with her beak.
“It’s dark inside your mind, but not in here, where your heart is. You want light? Look there. Follow the light of your heart out of the labyrinth.”
“It’s not that easy.”
“Of course it’s not. Some choices in life are hard. However, it’s the ones that are hardest to make that give us the biggest reward.”
“So what choice do I make? I don’t know what to do!”
“Sure you do. You can either give up and accept things as they are, or you can choose to live and embrace life. The choice is yours.”
I thought about
what she had
said and what
I really wanted.
I knew that
this was no
life. I was
living as if
I had already
died. I closed
my eyes and
tried to see
the light at
the end of
the labyrinth, leading
me to freedom.
As soon as
I made the
choice to look
for the light,
I saw it.
I don’t know
why I hadn’t
seen it before,
perhaps because I
didn’t want to
see it. I raced
towards it, the
twists and turns
of the labyrinth
falling away as
I figured my
way through its
twists and turns.
When I got
to the exit,
the light was
waiting for me,
bright and beautiful
and full of
warmth. I stepped
into it and
raised my face
to it, letting
it cleanse away
the darkness.
“I choose to live.”
I whispered softly.
“I choose to live!”
I yelled this,
made it a declaration
of purpose, intent
and meaning. I
breathed in
the sunlight. It
filled me with
warmth that stretched
to every corner
and curve of
my body. When
I opened my
eyes, it was
to find that
the forest and
the owl were
both gone. All
that remained was
one feather. Written
on its plumage
was one word.
Live.
world in the same
way others do. In
my world, there are
dragons flying overhead, soaring
through the clouds. In
my world, there are
flowers and plants that
talk to you as
you walk along the
path. Sometimes, they sing.
In my world, there
are fair folk. Some
are kind, helping you
along on your path,
showing you the right
way. Others would lead
you astray, into the
deadly swamps that await
those who have lost
all hope. Yet, there
are even more strange
sights to see, unicorns
and griffins, ogres and
trolls, battling it out
over something you have
said or didn’t say.
There are darker corners
that are full of
despicable people capable of
the darkest of deeds.
However, for every person
of darkness, there is
one of light so
pure and so complete
that it never fails
to shine in the
darkest corners of my
world, for good must
always triumph over
evil. I stop for a
moment on the path
that I’ve been walking
upon when my Prince
comes up behind me
and wraps his arms
around me in an
embrace. He is warm
and wonderful, full of
the kind of light
that shines so brightly.
“What are you writing?”
He asks. I answer
as truthfully as possible.
“I’m not sure yet.”
His scent envelopes me.
“I can’t wait to read it.”
I carry a smile within
me as he walks
away and I wield
my pen, mightier than
the sword, and wait
for the story that
wants to be set
free.
I saw a man with
the bluest eyes. They were
a dark and vibrant blue,
the colour of a sky after
a storm has cleared.
I had a flash from
my youth, a wish to be
other than I was,
to not look as I did.
I had always wanted
blond hair and blue eyes.
For reasons unknown to me,
this was what I identified
as beautiful. As I
walked away from the
blue eyed man,
I whispered over and over:
“I wish, I wish, I wish….”
I stopped there, however.
What did I wish exactly?
Though my life was not
what I thought it would be,
I was happy.
Though I did not look
like everyone else,
I loved myself,
every part of me,
even my imperfections.
If I changed one iota
of who I was,
or what I looked like,
I would not be on
the path I was on today.
My life would be
different than it was now.
It wouldn’t be the life
that I was living
but someone else’s.
I was finally happy
inside my own skin
and content with the life
that I’ve been given.
So instead, I simply said
“I wish…”
and left it at that.
For to wish for something
is to invite the possibility
of magic
into your life.
As I walked home,
the air around me began
to sparkle and shine
and I knew that
I was already
magical.