Number-one bestselling author
that we met,
my life has
been filled with
light. As our
love has continued
to grow, I’ve
changed. Now, instead
of hiding and
hoping for a
better life, I’m
living it. Instead
of wishing for
magic, I’m creating
it. Instead of
shying away from
all of life’s
pleasures, I’m embracing
them. Rather than
shy away from
anything, I’m meeting
things head on
unafraid of what
will happen. Instead
of waiting for
life to happen
to me, I’m making
my life happen.
Rather than try
to change me
into something that
you wanted me
to be, you
accepted me as
I was, as I
am, embracing all
of me and
all that I
could be. You
believe in me
even when my
belief in myself
flags or wavers.
You love even
the parts of
me that I
didn’t love and
now I see
myself in a
different light, through
a different lens.
You have changed
my life into
something so wonderful.
You have also
turned the world
from a mystery
waiting to be
solved into something
waiting to be
discovered. You’ve shown
me what true
love really is
and I’m a
better man because
of you. You’ve
given me the
world and I’m
eternally grateful for
your light. You
have given me
the world and
I can’t wait
to discover it
with you.
away, I dream
of you at
night. You come
into my sleep
like the wind
and it is
a cool balm
on my skin.
When you enter
my dream, all
I can see
is the light
that emanates from
you, so bright
that I am
momentarily blinded by
you. In the
dreams, we are
hand in hand,
exploring unseen territory,
unknown places: great
expanses of sand
stretching as far
as the eye
can see, meadows
full of flowers
begging to be
picked, caverns and
caves or cliffs.
In my dreams,
we travel the
world together. When
I wake, I
still feel your
hand in mine,
your body next
to me. Though
you are away,
you are never
far from me
as I carry
you inside my
heart. When I
wake, my body
is filled with
light that chases
away the darkness
of night, though
our travels during
slumber stay with
me, clear in
my mind. When
you are away,
I lay down
to sleep at
night and wonder
where we’re going
next.
I sat there,
a stranger inside
my own body.
I had a choice
but I didn’t
know how to
make it. I
didn’t know. I
was lost within
myself and what
I had become.
It was as
if my body
had become a
labyrinth and I
had no way
of knowing how
to find the
exit. The forest
was there, the
trees lush and
green inside my
apartment. They were
beautiful but I
knew the trees
deadly. Their leaves
were tinged in
blood. I ignored
them and the
whisper of their
call, turned away
from the lure
of the darkness
that I could
lose myself in.
Everything was finished
and I had nothing.
“That’s not true, though, is it?”
A small voice
spoke from the
trees. I looked
up into the
leaves and saw
a bright eyed
owl. It regarded
me with eyes
that shone like
gold. I shook
my head to
clear my vision.
The trees and
the owl remained.
“How can you hear my thoughts?”
The owl ruffled
it’s feathers and
regarded me with
a wise stare.
“How can I not when you think so loudly? How long has it been since you’ve been out of this apartment?”
I shook my head.
“I don’t know. I go out for work.”
“But when was the last time you went out to simply live?”
I didn’t want
to answer its
questions so I
asked it one
of my own.
“How can you come from the dark forest? There isn’t anything beautiful in there.”
The owl laughed,
making a soft
hooting noise that
was like music.
“Oh, you know the forest so well do you? You know only the shadows of the trees, not the beauty that lies within. For even in darkness, there must be balance.”
I shook my
head, so sure
that I knew
more than the owl.
“The forest is only darkness. That’s all it has ever been.”
“Yes, but darkness comes from the absence of light.”
“What does that mean?”
“If it’s darkness that has you down, make light to chase away the shadows.”
“I’ve forgotten how. I’m too far inside the labyrinth and can’t find my way out.”
The owl ruffled
her feathers and
blinked her eyes
at me in
with impatience. She
flew down off
of the branch
and perched on
my leg. She
moved forward and
pecked at my
chest with her beak.
“It’s dark inside your mind, but not in here, where your heart is. You want light? Look there. Follow the light of your heart out of the labyrinth.”
“It’s not that easy.”
“Of course it’s not. Some choices in life are hard. However, it’s the ones that are hardest to make that give us the biggest reward.”
“So what choice do I make? I don’t know what to do!”
“Sure you do. You can either give up and accept things as they are, or you can choose to live and embrace life. The choice is yours.”
I thought about
what she had
said and what
I really wanted.
I knew that
this was no
life. I was
living as if
I had already
died. I closed
my eyes and
tried to see
the light at
the end of
the labyrinth, leading
me to freedom.
As soon as
I made the
choice to look
for the light,
I saw it.
I don’t know
why I hadn’t
seen it before,
perhaps because I
didn’t want to
see it. I raced
towards it, the
twists and turns
of the labyrinth
falling away as
I figured my
way through its
twists and turns.
When I got
to the exit,
the light was
waiting for me,
bright and beautiful
and full of
warmth. I stepped
into it and
raised my face
to it, letting
it cleanse away
the darkness.
“I choose to live.”
I whispered softly.
“I choose to live!”
I yelled this,
made it a declaration
of purpose, intent
and meaning. I
breathed in
the sunlight. It
filled me with
warmth that stretched
to every corner
and curve of
my body. When
I opened my
eyes, it was
to find that
the forest and
the owl were
both gone. All
that remained was
one feather. Written
on its plumage
was one word.
Live.