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started to change
colour. No longer
green, they were
filled with hues
of red and
gold and orange.
The world was
once again moving
towards a rainbow
of colour and
there was a
crispness to the
air that smelled
of wood smoke
and hints of
the coming cold.
I came upon
a line of
leaves, leading into
the distance. They
were all the
same brilliant yellow,
so bright it
almost hurt to
look at them.
With the leaves
forming a path,
they looked as
if someone had
taken the bricks
of the yellow
brick road and
arranged them. I
was going to
walk by them
when a wind
rose up around
me, causing the
leaves to circle
and dance around
me. I heard the
crinkle of leaves
and watched as
a woman, dressed
in a dress
the same colour
of the leaves
came walking down
the path towards
me. It was
only as the
cyclone of leaves
ceased it’s movement
that I realized
her dress was
made from the
leaves themselves. She
smiled at me
in a kindly
sort of way.
“The leaves normally do not react that way towards your kind.”
She said. Her
voice sounded like
the wind rustling
through the trees.
“They’ve told me to take you with me. Come.”
She held out
her hand and
I took it.
The skin was
dry under my
touch and I
wondered why I
was going with
her so willingly;
but there didn’t
seem to be
anything to fear
from her. There
was an almost
regal presence to
her and I
felt comfortable immediately.
Her skin was
like paper under
my own. She
saw that I
had questions. My
eyes gave me
away. She smiled
kindly and began
to walk down
the path, bringing
me with her.
“All will be told in time. Your curiosity is good though, it will serve you well.”
She walked slowly,
as if every
step was somehow
painful. Indeed, she
was almost limping.
“How will my curiosity serve me well?”
“Oh, curiosity keeps the spirit alive. When there are always things to look at, to see, to discover, the soul and spirit grow. It’s the natural way of things.”
She stumbled then
and crumpled to
the ground. I
bent down to
help her up
and was amazed
at how light
she was. She
saw my questions
in my eyes
again, at what
I wanted to
ask her. She
held up a
paper thin hand,
stalling my voice.
“I am all right. Again, it is the natural way of things, these changing of seasons.”
We still walked
further along the
path of yellow
leaves. I stopped
and looked at
her closely for
the first time.
Not only was
her dress made
of leaves, but
her as well.
I could see
where the dress
should end, there
was merely the
change in colour
to a lighter
shade of leaves
that made up
her skin. I
stood back from
her, taking all
of her in.
“Yes, I am made from leaves.”
She said, as
if reading my
mind. She smiled.
“It is my time to fade away. Look, there is the tree I was made from.”
She pointed to
a large oak
tree, it’s branches
bare of all
its leaves.
She motioned to
her dress, offering
me a bright
smile. There were
tears in her
eyes though and
I longed to
wipe them away.
“It’s almost winter. That is when my time ends. I’m born when Autumn arrives and can walk the earth when the leaves fall. My time is almost done.”
“How can you stand it?”
I asked her.
“It is the way of things. You have to live life when it’s given to you and not spend time thinking of what could have been. You can only think about what is.”
More of her
leaves, more
of her, fell
away as she
spoke, the leaves
joining the ones
already forming the
path. I realized
then that they
all came from
her, that she
had marked her
path across the
ground with herself.
“Why are you showing me this?”
I asked her.
She gave me
one last smile.
“So you know. So you can pass this knowledge on.”
A strong breeze
ripped across the
air and her
whole form fluttered
with it, as
if she were
coming apart at
the seams. I
watched her until
all I could
see were her
eyes, blinking like
jewels among leaves.
“Don’t forget. Live the life you’ve been given and don’t look back. Always look forward. Always.”
Then a final
wind rushed by,
tearing the last
of the leaves
away. I was
surrounded by a
swirl of leaves
and could hear
the sound of
her laughter. It
was joyous, as
if she weren’t
really dying. It
was the sound
of freedom. I
looked at the
path of leaves
and stopped to
pick one up.
I put it
in my pocket
and it sat
there like a
ray of sunshine
that would help
keep me warm
through the coming
winter. The wind
sounded as if
it were sighing.
“I won’t forget. I promise. I won’t forget.”
I walked home,
thinking of the
future.
when I feel like
the Scarecrow:
made of straw and
bits of fluff, with my
head filled with clouds,
nary a thought inside,
or able to pass through
the fog that waits within.
On other days, I feel
like the Cowardly Lion,
all bluster, filled with
pomp and circumstance
on the outside to hide
the fatigue and that
all I want is to curl up
and lose myself in slumber.
There are even days
where I feel like
the Tin Man, that metal
being without a heart,
as if emotion can’t penetrate
my metal shell, nor
seep through it.
More often than not, though,
I’m looking around at
the world like Dorothy:
full of wonder, enchanted
by the land around me;
being daring enough
to explore everything,
to discover all that life
has to offer, all over again
as if for the first time.
Dorothy held onto the hope
that she would get home,
that she would find the place
in this world and the one
beyond where she belonged.
Though I embody all of them
(the Scarecrow, the Cowardly Lion,
and the Tin Man)
it is Dorothy I hold closest
for she proved two things:
there’s no place like home
and that magic,
true magic,
actual magic,
is always possible.
the dark forest,
I walked along
a path. I
didn’t know where
it was going,
had no idea
where I would
end up. Above
me, the clouds
changed shape. I
saw eagles, falcons
and other birds,
as if the
very clouds were
telling me to
fly. I made
my way through
the storm fields,
forcing myself to
walk through the
tall grass that
was whipped too
and fro with
such wicked ferocity.
A field of
grass that whispered
thoughts I had
when darkness took
hold. The grass
told me to
lie down within
it, and just
to let go.
I traversed through
through the deep
murky swamp, ignoring
the goblin that
hid within telling
me that everything
would be okay
if I just let
He laughed
at me, at
what I had
been, every terrible
thought I’d had
about myself. I
came to the
ghost lands, where
all those I’d
thought I had
loved called out
to me, telling
that I was
nothing, that I
was pathetic, that
they owned me.
I ignored all
of them, the
grass, the goblin
and the ghosts.
I left them
behind me, in
my past. Instead,
I kept my
eyes on the
path and looked
from time to
time at the
birds in the
sky, leading me
towards what, I
didn’t know. The
path turned to
red dust and
pieces of rock.
I suddenly found
myself in front
of a large
mountain that towered
high up into
the sky and
the clouds. There
was no way
I could climb
over it. I
stood there, not
knowing what to
do. It was
then that a
shadow detached itself
from the rocks
and walked towards
I watched as
the shadow grew
bright, as if
it was not
made from darkness
but from a
bright white light.
Then you were
in front of
me, shining like
the stars and
the moon. You
smiled and spoke
my name softly.
“I’ve been waiting my whole life for you.”
You said to
me. I nodded.
“And I for you.”
I said. I
pointed to the
mountain, at it blocking the
only way forward.
“What do we do now? How do we climb over it?”
You looked at
the mountain and
then back at me.
“It’s only an obstacle because you see it that way. Why don’t we just go around?”
I shook my
head, trying to
find the words.
“It could take forever to go around the mountain.”
You smiled and
your light increased.
“Then it will be forever with you. Besides, who knows what sights we’ll see?”
You took my
hand and we
started off, around
the mountain. The
falcon’s and the
eagles, the ravens
and the crows,
all made of
clouds but somehow
solid, swooped down
to join us,
following us on
our journey towards
what forever would
bring.
at you, all
I see is
light. Every movement
you make leaves
tracers in the
air, so bright
and beautiful is
the light that
pulsates from you.
When you speak,
It is as
If you’re singing
to a part
of me that
has remained in
the dark and
was waiting to
bask in your
light. You are
joy given shape,
brilliance given focus,
beauty given form
and I am
grateful to know
you.
* For Alexandra, because you are wonderful. 🙂