When I Think of You – Now in Paperback!

I’m super thrilled! The paperback edition of my National Best Seller When I Think of You is now available!

Here’s a bit about the book:

There is something about capturing the longing of the human heart within words.

When Jamieson Wolf first met the man who would become his husband, he began to write him love poems. Over the next six years, he penned more and more of them trying to find a way to describe how he felt about the love that was blooming between them. Follow along on their journey.

These poems contain joy and light, wonder and healing. Ultimately, this volume of poems confirms a couple of Jamieson’s beliefs: that love can heal all kinds of wounds and that magic is very real.

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You can also get your copy in ebook while it’s still on sale! The ebook is $0.99 right now, but as of February 15th 2020, it goes up to the full price of $3.99! Get it while it’s on sale! You can find the ebook copy here:

I hope you enjoy the book and Feel the Love!

A Year of You – 6: Hoolio Ramirez and the Unrequited Love

“Ah, Hoolio!”

He turned to see the young girl, Hasenpfeffer, coming towards him. “Hello Miss.”

She smiled kindly at him. “No, no, call me Has and I will call you Hoolio.” She huffed a little. “We’ve been over this several times now.”

Despite her serious air, Hoolio chuckled. She was an odd duck for such a young girl, but he had always liked someone with spunk and spirit; and this child had both in spades. “I’m sorry, Has.” He nodded to her. “How are you today?”

“A little vexed, to tell you the truth.” She said. She ran a finger over the rose bushes. “You’ve done such beautiful work this year, Hoolio.” She said.

He blushed. The compliment was a pleasure, even if it did come from a girl who reminded him strongly of someone from Children of the Corn. “That’s mighty nice of you to say.”

“Think nothing of it. Praise given when deserved is simply truth.” She turned to him. “I did want to ask you a question though; a gardening one.”

“Go ahead.”

“My mother is thinking of buying me a small Shetland pony. But she also wants to redo the foliage around the estate. Are there any plans that would be found in forests or as weeds or ornamental grass that could be harmful to someone?”

That was an odd question for a thirteen year old to ask, he thought. “That’s an interesting question.” He said. Hoolio thought for a moment. “Well, most poisons come from nature, or are derived from them. There is Belladonna. It is beautiful but deadly in large doses. There is poison ivy of course, poison oak. But each poisonous plant has its own different ways of delivering the poison.” He said. “It’s like natures kind of armour.”

Has regarded him for a moment with cool, dark eyes. Then she smiled. The smile did nothing to lessen the chill that shimmied through his body at that moment, when their eyes met. “Thank you, Hoolio.” She said. “You’ve given me a lot to think about today.”

As he watched her walk slowly back up to the house, Hoolio shook his head. “I need to get another job,” he said out loud to himself. “That child gives me the heebie jeebies.” He gave a careful glance back at the house. “The parents are pretty messed up too.”

He sighed and stood. Taking out a pack of cigarettes, he lit one and took a drag. “And now I’m talking to myself.” He sighed. “Great.” He wondered how the day could possibly get any worse than this.

Unfortunately, he was about to find out.

*          *          *

Hoolio had taken off his lunch break to go and see Walter. Has had been at the back door and had seen him. But she had held a finger to her mouth. “Go on,” she said. “I won’t tell anyone.”

Despite the fact that she gave him the creeps, Has did have her moments. “Thanks kid.” Hoolio said.

“Don’t mention it.” She laughed. “Now go get him, tiger!”

Her laughter followed him out of the house as he made his way down back walkway. He didn’t have far to go. At the end of the block, he turned left and smiled, as always, when he saw the small restaurant.

Tatiana’s was nestled in the small residential neighbourhood and had been for years. As it was so close to the Finkelstein estate, it was natural that the staff that worked there would venture out to have a few and let out some steam.

It was where they had met. Well, that wasn’t really true. They had worked together for a while before the attraction between the two of them made itself known. Hoolio thought that it was that knowledge of each other that made their love so strong.

When Hoolio entered the restaurant and saw Walter sitting at their normal table, he knew almost immediately that something was wrong. Instead of their regular drinks in front of him, a highball in front of Walter, a Tequila Sunrise waiting for Hoolio, there were only two glasses of water.

Feeling as if he were wading through a large body of water, Hoolio made his way over to the table and sat down. Walter didn’t rise to greet him or take his hand. He didn’t give Hoolio a quick kiss on the side of his cheek.

Hoolio wondered if he had begun dreaming sometime after he had woken up. “Walter, what is it?” He asked. He tried to keep the panic out of his voice. “What’s going on?”

“I can’t hide it from you any longer.” Walter said. “I’ve been seeing someone else for a while now and have chosen him over you.” Walter gave a shrug. “It happens.”

His heart was a shattered glass chalice in his chest. He could feel the shards digging into his lungs, the sounds around him had gone all fuzzy, as if mussed by static. “What happens?”

Walter gave Hoolio a look as if he were being incredibly stupid. “Love, of course. You can’t help where you find it, only whether or not to follow it if you find it.”

Hoolio’s breathing had become laboured. He took in several deep breaths and told himself he would not cry. He would not cry, he would not cry. “But I still love you.” He said. He had to push the words out past a throat filled with shards of glass, their sandy grit giving his words a torn quality.

Walter’s expression softened only for a moment before being replaced by this cool, cold individual that Hoolio didn’t know. He reached forward and patted Hoolio’s hand lightly. “But that’s the problem, isn’t it?” He took his hand away. “I don’t love you anymore.”

Hoolio waited until Walter had exited the restaurant, waited until the little bells signalled his exit.

Then he let the tears come.

When I Think of You – NATIONAL BEST SELLER!

I’m so thrilled!

When I Think of You got to the number 4 spot on the Amazon Best Seller Lists! That is big huge massive news! It is a Canadian Best Seller! So of course, that meant having the cover redesigned. This cover was done by the incredible Meaghan and it’s so lovely!

The paperback edition is nearing completion. It should (hopefully) be released in time for Valentine’s Day! Yay!

The ebook is currently only $0.99, but the price will be going up soon. On February 15th, the price is going up to $3.99. If you want a copy of the best selling When I Think of You, I’d grab it now while it’s still on sale!

Grab your copy here: https://www.amazon.ca/When-Think-You-Jamieson-Wolf-ebook/dp/B084D948Q1/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=When+I+think+of+you+jamieson+wolf&qid=1581198018&sr=8-1

Stay tuned for more news on this book and Feel the Love!

Dream Lover – A Flash Fiction Story

It loomed larger than the sky.

To Simon, it looked impossibly big, as if it would blot out the moon itself. He approached it with trepidation. It would happen tonight; he was sure of it. This evening, he would finally see in man what had been haunting his dreams.

For weeks, he hadn’t been able to sleep. Even more worrying, the dreams had begun to haunt his daylight hours. Simon couldn’t get the man’s eyes out of his head. When Simon closed his eyes, all he could see was the man and his body and he could hear the whispering.

It was the whispering that had led him here. Every time he had woken, he grabbed a piece of parchment and had written feverishly, trying to capture the words on paper before they left him, hoping that they would help soothe him. They only drove Simon crazier. All he could see every time he woke were the man’s smile and eyes so dark that they looked black.

However, within those words was the man’s name and a location. Staring at the mausoleum, Simon wondered why the whispering would bring him here. It didn’t matter, he just knew that he had to see the man that had haunted his dreams. Every time the man spoke to him, Simon had heard his words within his whole body and they filled him with longing. The fact that he was so close was so thrilling and frightening at the same time.

As he walked closer, Simon could hear the whispering growing louder. When Simon finally laid his hand on the thick stone door that stood sentinel, the whispers stopped. With some effort, Simon was able to pull the stone door open and he slipped inside.

Looking around, Simon saw only one grave marker. He wondered what he was supposed to do. Was the man from his dreams somehow hiding somewhere within the mausoleum? He walked towards the grave and could only hear more of the soft and salient sounds of the whispers. Looking around him, he saw nothing but shadows but when he turned around one final time, He saw something hanging from a hook that had been hammered into the stone close to the grave marker. It was a pair of goggles.

Taking them off he hook, he examined them. They looked to be aviators’ goggles and there was a slight sheen on the goggles as if they were made of a special type of glass. The whispering returned and increased until he slipped them on and then the whispering stopped again. He adjusted the goggles and made sure they were fastened in place. Then he looked around.

It was hard to believe that he was inside a mausoleum. When he turned around, he saw not a dark and shadowy crypt but a very posh parlour with a piano to one side and a settee on the other. On the settee was the man that had filled his dreams for the past few days. He had the same dark eyes that he had dreamed about for so long, so dark that Simon wanted to swim in them. He had dark stubble covering his chin and Simon wanted to find out what it would feel like to have that stubble rasp across his face.

The man stood and walked towards Simon. He was wearing a loose-fitting poet’s shirt that showed a smattering of chest hair. He had broad shoulders and strong looking arms and he had on black trousers and black leather boots. He was everything that he had been in the dream and he was here in front of him.

“I thought you weren’t real.” Simon said.

The man smiled at Simon. “I get that a lot.”

They stared at each other for a moment until the man reached out to touch Simon’s face. “You’re even more beautiful awake than you were asleep. Your eyes are filled with lust.”

Simon moaned softly. “As are yours. I feel like I’ve waited a lifetime for you.”

“I have waited that long. Say my name. Let me hear it spoken from your lips.”

“Gaston.” Simon said. Saying it out loud filled his body with more than want.

Reaching out for Gaston, Simon was surprised to feel only air and in fact watched as his hand passed through Gaston’s face. It seemed to come apart for a moment, as if it were made of cloud vapour and mist. Simon watched as it reformed like a cloud coming back together and he paused, looking at Gaston and the beauty that he saw within those eyes. He reached out once more and was somehow unsurprised when Gaston came apart and remade himself once more.

“What is this magic?” Simon whispered.

A pained look covered Gaston’s face and Simon watched as a tear slid down his cheek. “I’m sorry.”

“What are you sorry for?” Simon’s voice was a whisper.

“I’m sorry. I couldn’t tell you in the dreams, I only have the power to appear, not to speak. Otherwise I would have told you.”

“Told me what?” Simon asked, fear sliding along his skin.

“Those goggles you are wearing.” Gaston said, pointing at them. “They let you see into my world.”

“What world is that?” Simon didn’t want to hear the answer.

“The world of the dead.”

Simon removed the goggles for a moment and there was nothing in front of him. When he put the back, Gaston had returned. Gaston felt as if a part of him fell away.

“I can’t touch you?” Simon asked. “I’ve wanted nothing more than to hold you close to me!”

“I know, my heart. Fear not, however. Though you cannot touch me, I can touch you.”

Gaston was true to his word. Simon gave himself over to the ghost’s touch and the breeze along his skin and let himself become undone by want. When his world came apart, Simon fell into the darkness and felt the ghost fall with him.

A Year of You: 5- Ignatius Finkelstein’s Secret

Ignatius Finkelstein was keeping a secret from his wife.

This was nothing new. Their marriage, in fact, had been based on lies and deceit. Valetta had claimed to love him yet he knew that all she really loved was his money. The woman couldn’t even give him a male heir. All they had for a child was Hasenpfeffer and she was second rate at best.

It didn’t matter. None of it really mattered. He often wondered if he actually loved his wife and daughter. The wife? No, he didn’t love her. The daughter? The jury was still out on that.

He took the same route he always did. The roads weren’t too crowded this time of night and, within fifteen minutes, he’d arrived at his destination. He did the same thing he did every time he visited this place and looked at it for a while, as if sussing it out.

Through the haze of smoke that filled the cab of his car, Ignatius looked out into the night. The house sat there like a lover, bathed in a soft golden hue of light. And like a long time lover, the house looked as if it had seen better days.

It was dilapidated and slightly worn. The wrap around porch sagged in front of the main door. But for all its faded beauty, the house still held an iota of charm for him, something that called to him.

Stepping out of the car, he locked the car door even as the cloud of smoke that followed him readjusted itself around his head. Looking out at the parking lot, he saw that the place wasn’t too busy, not yet anyways.

As he always did, he felt a moment of fear, a moment of shock at his daring and wondered if anyone had seen him. Of course they hadn’t seen him. He knew that. Ignatius Finkelstein was nothing if not careful.

Gathering a moment of strength, Ignatius left his car and walked towards the old house. It had seen better days, but then again, so had he.

He rang the doorbell and shivered in anticipation as he heard the answering notes ring out through the old house. While he waited, Ignatius picked lint off his suit jacket. He tried not to run his hand over the item he kept in his pocket.

Looking up again, he saw a shape coming towards him, its lines distorted by the coloured glass set into the door. As the footsteps became louder, the shape grew. All too soon, before Ignatius could really calm himself, the door was opened.

A woman with a warm face looked up at him. “Oh, Mr. Finkelstein!” The woman’s was split by a large smile. “I haven’t seen you in a dogs age, come in, come in.”

“How are you today, Ms. Hockneybrow?” Ignatius kept his voice courteous and respectful. “Has there been any trouble lately?”

The older woman gave him a soft pat on the arm. “How many times have I told you to call me Mafalda? I’ve told you time and time again.”

“Every time I visit here.” Said Ignatius.

“Then why don’t you do as your told?” The old woman chided.

“I’ve always been taught to mind my elders Ms…Malfalda.” He said.

Mafalda Hockneybrow laughed and pinched his cheek. “You got a real smart mouth, anyone ever tell you that?”

“Only you.” He said.

She laughed again and led him down a long, darkened hallway. They passed closed doors, noises escaping past the sound proofed doors. Malfalda scowled at them. “Soundproof my ass.” She said. “Doesn’t matter how much padding you give a door, I can still hear you all carrying on.”

Leading him into the main drawing room, Mafalda sat him down on one of the large, black leather sofa’s and offered him a drink. “Beer, wine? Maybe some tea?”

Ignatius nodded. “Beer would be fine.”

“Now, what did you want this evening? There are a few specials on offer. There’s some nice middle eastern that’s particularly popular or perhaps you’d fancy yourself a nice oriental experience?”

Ignatius shook his head. “I don’t know.” He said. Smoke whirled around his head like a storm cloud. It seemed to move and pulse with his words. “I don’t know what I’m in the mood for tonight.”

“Well, you know what to do. Take a look through the albums and let me know when you’ve made your choice. Just press the button on the wall there.”

Mafalda walked away with quiet steps, leaving Ignatius to peruse the albums at his pleasure. Picking up the first one, he opened it and looked at the photographs contained within. It took him only a moment to decide.

He pressed the buzzer. Mafalda was with him again in moments. “I’d like that one,” he said.

“Oh, splendid choice, just added to the menu last week. You’ll be very pleased.” Mafalda said.

“For the money I’m paying, I certainly hope so.”

Chuckling, Mafalda led the way down another long hallway. Steeling himself, Ignatius followed the older woman into the darkness.