Let the Holiday Reading Begin!

I put up my tree today and hung it with decorations. That means that it’s time to start reading great books to put you in the mood for the holidays!

Why not fill your kindles up early? From Monday November 25th 2019 until November 29th, you can download four of my holiday tales absolutely free! How’s that for awesome?

Love and Two Keys

Xander is an outcast at school.

He is often the victim of mockery and bullying. The other kids know that he is not like them, that there is something different about him. Instead of interacting with others, he sits inside and reads his books during his lunch period. While he reads, he is truly alive.

Remy is his only friend in the whole school. There is something different about her, too; but unlike Xander, Remy is out and proud and unafraid. She tells Xander there is no shame in being gay, that being yourself can set you free. Xander is unsure of what to do.

Then two things happen at once. Xander meets a boy named Alex and, when he does, the two keys he wears around his neck start to glow. Soon, Xander is faced with a choice: accept who he is and the chance at love? Or turn away from it all.

Thankfully, it’s Christmas and magic can make anything possible… https://www.amazon.ca/Love-Two-Keys-Jamieson-Wolf-ebook/dp/B07JYG7M25/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=Love+and+Two+Keys+Jamieson+Wolf&qid=1574644318&sr=8-1

The Greatest Gift

Lincon is living inside of himself.

Having lost his partner Xander three years ago, on December 24th, he is a shell of his former self. His only comfort can be found in a circle of stone where he can hear Xander’s voice. His friend, Dava, tries to get him to engage with life again, telling him that Xander would have wanted him to be happy.

Lincon is content to live out the rest of his life by not living. What he needs is a miracle. That miracle comes in the form of an angel. Those we have loved are closer to us then we could even dream. Having watched his lover drift further inside himself, Xander knows he must do something, but what can he do?

Gabriel is the one that tells him to find someone for Lincon, someone who shines bright. If Xander should find someone, how does he make sure they meet?

Thankfully, miracles do happen at Christmas…

https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B081Y46KM7/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=The+Greatest+Gift+by+Jamieson+Wolf&qid=1574644273&sr=8-1

Yuletide Magic

Abigail Ivy hate Christmas.

Working as a elf in Santa’s village in her local mall, all she sees all day is rude parents, whiny children, mean people and foul shoppers. But her hatred of Christmas goes even deeper than that. Her heart is hard and cold around Christmas; it will need a bit of divine intervention to melt Abigail’s bah humbug heart.

That divine intervention arrives in the form of Clayton Jasper Riddell Greyhound the Fourth, an Angel on his yearly Holiday mission: to bring Holiday Joy and Cheer to one who needs it. He tells Abigail that he is her destiny. She thinks he’s a fruitcake. But fruitcake or not, Greyhound means to show Abigail the true joy of Christmas and the Holiday season.

Whether she likes it or not.

https://www.amazon.ca/Yuletide-Magic-Jamieson-Wolf-ebook/dp/B009UW375Y/ref=sr_1_18?keywords=jamieson+wolf&qid=1574642695&sr=8-18

12

Oliver hates Christmas. He hates the fakery of it, the false joy that lifts everyone’s spirits. But only momentarily, only until the next box is opened, until the next piece of paper is torn away. But he is a true bringer of joy. In taking their lives, he is the giver of ultimate pleasure; and what better gift could there be for the Holidays than eternal bliss?

But this year is special. This year is 12.

Every year, for eleven years, Oliver has chosen twelve people, one person for each of the twelve days of Christmas. This year is 12. The final year. This year is personal. This is the year of the 12, payment for all of Oliver’s hard work. And he intends to collect. Eleven victims have already fallen-and Oliver has saved the best for last.

Merry Freaking Christmas. This year, there will be blood.

https://www.amazon.ca/12-Jamieson-Wolf-ebook/dp/B005G517WY/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=12+by+Jamieson+Wolf&qid=1574643349&sr=8-1

If that wasn’t good enough, here are two more holiday stories that are also free! I know, right? Your Kindles will be full of magic!

The Magic of Stars

Oscar doesn’t believe in magic.

Though he lives in Inglewood Hamlet where magic is an everyday occurrence and his grandmother is the village miracle woman. Oscar still doesn’t believe in magic. Scientific facts are things that are proven, whereas magic has no quantifiable proof.

His whole world changes when one night, at his grandmothers urging, he wishes upon a falling star. “I wish I believed in magic…”

The next day, he meets a girl in the village named Laura. She seems unlike anyone he has ever met before. Even the snow seems to sparkle more around her. Though they have never met before, she seems to know him.

Little does Oscar know that Laura will change his life forever. Sometimes wishes do come true. It is Yuletide after all…

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/691736

Mistletoe and Lemonade

In a prequel set more than a year before the events of Lust and Lemonade, we find the gang about to celebrate the Christmas season.

It’s not been an easy time for Blaine. Dumped by his boyfriend two days ago, he is trying to recover and wondering whether or not he will ever find love again. Then he is visited by Gabriel, part of the AngelMan service, and things begin to take a turn for the better.

Nancy goes to visit Nan and finds her house dark and devoid of cheer. She sees no point in celebrating the holidays with just her in the house and Blaine living on his own. Nancy decides to have a holiday sleepover and decorate her house. The holidays are for family after all.

Chuck is planning to sleep his way through the holidays at the new bathhouse that opened up, but when he learns that it’s closed for the holidays, he has no idea what he’s going to do. Ray, the proprietor, decides to teach him what really matters for the Christmas season.

Mike and William are having problems of their own. William purchased a couch so big that it fills up their lofts living room, leaving their Christmas tree on the balcony. He wanted a good deal, never mind that the couch was totally impractical for what they needed. When Mike leaves, William must decide what matters most: the things we love or the people that love us.

Poppy is beside herself. Connie has been surlier than normal. When Poppy finally asks her what is wrong, she learns that in Connie’s last relationship, she had grown close to her ex’s daughter Alexa. She hasn’t seen her for two years and misses her most at Christmas. Poppy vows to do whatever she can to reunite them.

Will Blaine and friends find their happily ever after on Christmas? With a little bit of magic, anything is possible…

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/911759

I hope you enjoy all of these holiday goodies! May your season be starting off beautiful and bright.

Happy Reading!

Memory Photos – A Poem

* For Patti on your Birthday

The wheel of the year

has made another complete cycle.

You sit, looking at everything you have done,

going within to look at memories,

flipping through them like photos,

snapshots of moments that made up this year.

These memory photos show the love

that you gave to others you didn’t even know,

wanting to make the world a better place.

The snapshots show moments of joy,

your mouth caught in the curve of laughter,

the sound that you made still audible

when you hold the photo.

The pictures show moments of perseverance,

as you overcame that which you thought impossible,

but conquered the obstacles with strength,

your visage a mask of determination.

All together, these pieces of memory

show a woman who possesses

so much more than all these photos.

You are a woman who brings joy

to so many others with little thought of yourself

and you make the world shine.

You fill the world with kindness

that can only be repaid with the stars themselves.

When I look through my own memory photos of you,

I see a woman who has changed the lives

of so many others, including myself.

Today, as your wheel of the year

makes another turn and the cycle is ready

to begin once more,

I wanted you to know that you are loved

and if I could, I would give you the stars,

but they would pale in comparison

to your brilliance.

The River, The Ocean – A Poem

I stand in front of a wall.

It shifts and moves in front of me

and I look at the shapes

that are within the colours.

I take in its shifting and morphing flow,

mesmerised by what is before me.

There are faces contained by the water,

skylines and waterways,

dreams that have laid forgotten

waiting to come to the surface once more.

I can hear voices whispering to me,

snippets of song and rhymes

that I used to know.

Reaching out,

I touch the wall and realize

that it is not stone in front of me

but a wall of water.

It moves with life and with purpose,

deeper than I can possibly know

and just as infinite.

I close my eyes to hear the sound

of the water more clearly.

Instead of darkness,

I can see the water as it moves

and splashes into the empty crevices,

filling up the shadow with blue.

There is an intense calm inside me

and I watch from within

as the colour of the water darkens.

It takes me deeper inside myself,

urging me not to be afraid.

I open my eyes and look at the wall

of what I now know is water.

Removing my hand,

I watch as ripples form in the surface

and I can feel the same ripples

as they move within me.

I stare at the wall in front of me,

realizing that I am being given a view

into the depths of my emotions,

the spaces that they can fill up,

filled with both light and shadow.

I wonder if I took a boat and sailed

upon those waters,

so blue and so deep,

where would they lead me?

I stare entranced at a portal

that shows my internal landscape.

I watch as a small boat does appear

as if I wished it there.

I close my eyes to watch

as it embarks on a journey

of discovery,

and I wonder what

it will find.

The Growth of Wings – A Poem

I was raised to hate myself.

“Did you see that guy wearing earrings?”

My father would ask this

with a note of ridicule in his voice.

“Probably a homo.”

He would say,

holding his hand out with a limp wrist

and proceeding to talk

in a high pitched falsetto.

“Your wife will love these!”

He looked at me, a tinkle in his eyes

as he waited for me to laugh.  

One time my friends and I

were going to the Olive Garden.

“You know who works there?”

He asked us. We all shook our heads.

“That restaurant is full of homos.”

He told us, as if sharing some dark secret,

whispering the words the words in a hiss.

“Be careful he doesn’t touch your food. You never know where they’ve been.”

Later, at dinner, we were served by a man

who was so completely himself.

He sashayed towards our table

and after he took our order,

my friends laughed at his antics.

It was like they were laughing at me.

Each peel of laughter was like a nail in my skin,

trying to keep my secret inside.

I knew that I wasn’t like other boys,

that there was something different about me.

I was what my family laughed at,

what my friends gossiped about in school.

There was this one boy that was in a few of my classes.

I watched him transform himself,

first cutting his hair and dying it red,

then experimenting with makeup.

The more he became himself,

the fewer friends he had.

I looked at him,

blooming like a flower,

shedding the layers that were no longer him

to become what he always was underneath.

I watched him walk bravely through the school hallways,

letting the wings he had grown flow out behind him.

I wondered if anyone else could see them

and I wished that I was brave enough to be him.

Things got worse at home.

I couldn’t stop myself from being who I was,

no matter how hard I tried.

I was in this constant cycle with myself:

hate, disgust, fear, hate, loathing, fear.  

I knew what I was but could never say the word out loud.

I tried desperately to keep it inside,

to stop the light shining through the pores of my skin.

I hated myself so much

but could never bring myself

to voice who I was,

what I was.

My father knew and he hated me for it.

He tried everything in his power to keep me straight,

to clip my wings so that I did not shine.

Eventually he succeeded and I felt them torn from me.

My wings lay glittering on the ground.

I mourned that part of me,

those wings that had never gotten a chance to fly.

I finally left home at sixteen,

and though I walked on legs that were

made of cracked and crumbling glass,

the hate began to fade.

The want to hurt myself for what I was

slowly went away.

In my head,

where my fathers voice had been,

it had begun to grow quieter

and my own voice began to grow stronger.

As I began to use my own voice,

I would stand in front of the mirror

and look at myself.

I would press a finger to the glass

and tell myself:

“I know what you are, and I love you.”

My wings grew a little

each time I said those words.

Now, my wings spread into the sky

and they flutter behind me as I walk.

Now, my wings are strong enough

to fly.

The Whisper of Leaves – A Short Story

This is my newest Pay It Forward offering! It features my beautiful friend Dava. Enjoy!

Once upon a time in the village of Inglewood Hamlet, there was a boy that held the world in his hands.

He had purchased it from the witch woman that worked in the apothecary. She had watched him as he had been pursuing the goods on offer, running his fingers along all the items that he could touch: feathers, animal bones, pieces of coloured glass, stones of breathtaking beauty. According to the witch woman, every item held a different kind of magic. He was at a loss as to how a piece of glass could be magical, though.

The witch woman, who was really named Nathalie, motioned him over. “Come and sit a while, young Cedric. Come sit and I will brew you a cup of tea.”

Cedric was startled. “How do you know my name?”

“I know many things about you. Your name is written all over your face, as well as a lot of other things about you.” She smiled at him and motioned to a stool that sat in front of her counter. “Come and sit a spell, I won’t bite.”

He had always been warned against the witch woman. While his mother was alive, she had always told him to be wary of her and treat her kindly, even though he knew that a great many people in Inglewood Hamlet always visited the witch woman for a great many things. She helped to birth the babies, was called upon when people were sick and was very good at telling the farmers when to plant crops and when to harvest them.

Cedric knew that she was very wise, but other than that he didn’t know much about her. Every time he went into her shop, she would watch him while he went about touching things on her shelves and would give him a little wave when he left. Cedric had never heard her speak.

Heading up to the counter with his knees shaking slightly, he actually looked at the witch woman directly instead of out of the corner of his eyes, something he had always been too afraid to do. She was around sixty moons of age instead of the one hundred he had always imagined she was. The witch woman had shining white hair that fell to her shoulders like a soft, shining cloud. He wondered if her hair was magic.

She looked at him now with clear blue eyes that looked at him through spectacles that were perched on the edge of her nose. She gave him a small smile. “Not as frightening as you thought I was, am I?” Her voice was soft and kind and had a lilt to it that made her words sound like a song.

“No witch woman, you’re not old at all.”

“Well now, is that what they call me?” She let out a laugh that that sounded like foghorn. It made the wind chimes in her shop tinkle happily. “I suppose it fits, doesn’t it? It’s a find moniker, but not much of a name. You can call my Dava.” She reached out and ruffled his hair. “Sit, sit, I am going to make you a cup of tea.”

Cedric wrinkled his nose. “I don’t drink tea.”

“You’ll drink this tea. It’s made from wishes.”

That had his attention. He watched her as she made the tea. He expected her to put some loose-leaf tea in a cup with hot water. It’s what his mother use to do. Instead, she took a bottle off of one of the shelves behind her and poured a substance that was bright like the stars and flowed like water. It was multifaceted with colour: reds and golds, blues and greens, silvers and yellows. To this, she added some liquid from another bottle, this one shaped like a drop of rain. The liquid was a purple so deep that it almost looked black. She stirred this concoction with a small silver spoon and set it in front of him.

With some trepidation, Cedric looked into the glass and expected it to be full of that sparkling liquid that Dava had poured into the cup. Instead, it was as if he were looking into a seeing glass, except this one was reflecting images that had already happened instead of his face.

Inside the water, he watched his mother as she held his hand the last time. He was asleep and he could see her crying in the soft light of the moon. He watched as one of her hands reached out to stroke his face, but it wasn’t a hand that reached. Leaning closer to the cup, Cedric tried to see what it was but couldn’t make it out. He watched as the shape brushed his cheek and draw away quickly. A line of blood graced his cheek.

Reaching up, Cedric touched the mark that graced his cheek. He had always assumed that it was a birth mark. Had his mother given it to him? He looked for more within the cup but the liquid within went clear and the images faded.

“Oh my boy!” Dava said. She reached into a tin on the counter in front of her and pulled out what looked like a biscuit. She held it out to him. “Here you are now.”

“What is this made of?” Cedric asked. “Is this biscuit made of dreams and stardust?”

Dava ruffled his hair again. “Good guess, but no. This is a simple ginger cookie. Go on, take a bite.” 

Cedric did so and the biscuit was sweet and light. It filled him with a warmth that reminded him of when his mother had baked the same treats for him. This new memory shone more brightly than the sad one that he had just witnessed in his cup of tea.

“I think there is one more thing I must give you.” She reached down under the counter and handed Cedric a small, shiny black box.

Cedric turned it over in his hands, marvelling at how the light made the box look like the box was made of light. “Thank you.”

“Open the box, that’s a good boy. The gift I have for you is inside of it.”

Looking more closely, Cedric saw that there was a small latch. He pressed it and the box opened in his hand, gently releasing what it held within. Picking it up out of the box, Cedric looked at the object. It was round and he could hold it in the palm of his hand. There were notations around its edge. There was a large silver needle balanced in its centre. He marvelled at it as he turned it over in his hands.

“Do you know what it is?” Dava asked.

“No, ma’am.”

“It’s called a compass. Normally, you use it to find your direction in the world around you. This compass is special, though. Rather than trying to find out where you are, you must follow where it points you.”

He looked at her with wide eyes. “Will I have to follow it for a very long time?” Cedric asked. “I have to help father get the sheep in before dark.”

“No, no, not that long at all, dear boy. Not that far at all. You just follow that compass where it points you, okay?”

Cedric nodded. “Thank you, witch woman!”

“Dava.” She said with a smile.

“I’m sorry. Thank you Dava!”

He ran out of the door, eager to find out where the compass would point him. He was young enough to believe in magic, but old enough to remember when it has been absolutely real to him. Cedric followed the pointer of the compass, first going north then north west. He couldn’t follow it completely, as the scribe’s storefront was in the way. He walked on and the land around him was familiar. He had grown up in Inglewood Hamlet so he knew every cranny.

As he followed the pointer of the compass, he had a vague idea of where he was going. After all, Cedric had just walked this route to get to the witch woman’s store. He had wanted a distraction and she had given him one. However, the compass was leading him to the very place he had needed a distraction from, he was sure of it.

Reaching the edged of the lawn he knew so well, Cedric looked up and stared at the bedsit he shared with Ms. Mayhew. She had been looking after him after since his father had passed away and had been like a mother to him when his mother had passed on.

Now grumbling slightly, he kept following the compasses pointer and it led him to the backyard. There was a wide field there that he often explored in or went looking for buried treasure. Only now, when he went to the backyard, there was a tree there that had not been there this morning and it was growing through the table that he and his father had once made. The table had a bench that ran all the way around it.

“Ms. Mayhew!” He called out. “Come and see!”

She came out from the bedsit though the back door. She had a cloth over her shoulder and a sunny expression on her face. Whenever Cedric saw her, he thought of springtime. “Oh Cedric! Isn’t that beautiful?”

“Where did the tree come from? It wasn’t there this morning.”

“No, I only noticed it after you left when I came to hang the laundry.” She motioned at the twine upon which blankets and sheets hung, basking in the sun. “Isn’t it glorious?”

Looking at the tree, Cedric thought that it must be dancing to a song that only it could hear. Its branches swayed in the air. Watching it, Cedric was mesmerized. He watched the movement of the branches to see if he could hear the music.

“You go and sit by the tree; dinner will be on in a moment or two. Enjoy the sun, child. You look like you could use it. Where have you been all morning?”

“I went to see Dava the witch woman.” He said truthfully. He didn’t tell Ms. Mayhew about what he had seen in the cup or about the compass in his pocket. That seemed like a secret best kept between them.

“Such a lovely woman. Do you know that she plays a mean game of hearts and queens down in the tavern!” Ms. Mayhew said. “Well, amuse yourself for a while Cedric, I’ll call you when the lamb stew is ready.” She ruffled his hair much like Dava had before turning and heading back inside.  

He approached the table. He had built it with his father years ago when they had thought it would be a lovely place to eat outside. Strangely, the wood was not broken or chipped but bent around the tree. It looked as if the table was hugging the tree. He went and sat on the bench and looked up at the tree. Reaching out, he touched the bark of the tree. It was rough and uneven under the palm of his hand. It was as if the tree had always been here; it was not a newly grown shrub, but a fully-grown tree.

The tree was warm under his hand and the breeze that moved the trees branches picked up speed for a moment. He could hear a voice on the wind and as it rushed past his ears, the voice said, “I’ve missed you.”

He gazed in wonder as the tree as it began to glow a little brighter and he could finally hear the music. It sounded like flutes and birdsong sung on the wind. It swelled for a moment and the tree glowed still more brightly, so brilliant that he had to look away. When he looked back again, his mother stood before him.

Cedric didn’t know what to say. He hadn’t seen his mother in years. One night she had disappeared, and she was thought to have perished. It had been easier to believe that she had passed on. It had hurt him less than to think she had just gone.

“You must have a million questions.” She was his mother and not his mother. She looked to have limbs made of wood rather than skin. Even her face, though human, looked to be marked like the bark of a tree. Her hair which had once been rich and full of life now looked to be made of leaves of different brown hues. As she moved towards him, he heard the whisper of leaves.

“What happened to you?” Cedric’s voice was quiet. He wasn’t afraid, not really. He just wanted an explanation. Looking at his mother, he knew that this had something to do with magic. Cedric brought his hand up to his face to touch the small red mark that still remained there.

His mother raised a hand to her own cheek, mimicking him. She smiled. “I suppose it begins with the fact that I’m a being made of magic. I’m what’s known as a dryad.”

Cedric had heard tales of Dryad’s in and around the village of Inglewood Hamlet. “You’re a tree spirit.” He said.

“Yes. I can leave my tree as long as I return to it every once in a while to revive from its energy. Do you remember the walks that we used to take when you were younger?”

Nodding, Cedric said “You were always happiest there. Why did you leave your forest?”

“I met your father while he was walking in the forest and you know the rest. We married and we had you. I don’t regret it for a moment; you are my reason for living.” She said.

“Then why did you leave?” Cedric asked. His voice had become even quieter and he wasn’t even sure he had said the words out loud.

“I had no choice. My tree was being cut down by a carpenter. I had to run to the heart of me, had to protect myself. As my tree was being cut down, I became more and more tree and less and less human. The two of us are so entwined and I could feel myself dying.”

“What happened, mother?” He asked. He reached out a hand to touch her, to prove to himself that she was real.

“I took a moment to say goodbye to you, to see you one last time before I planned to return. You are my anchor in human form.” Her voice was soft and filled with anguish. “I got there in time to see the carpenter take my tree away. He had succeeded in cutting me down. I should have been dead in that moment, I should have died.”

“Why didn’t you?” Cedric asked, needing to hear the answer.

“There was a small seed that had fallen from one of my branches. My human form dissolved and I came alive in that seed. I was glad to still be alive, but I had no way to get back to you, no way to tell you that I was all right.”

She came to sit beside him and she put her arm around him and pulled him close. She smelled of leaves and earth and sunshine. He snuggled in closer and she wrapped her arm more securely around him.

“How did you get home?”

“It took a long time. I had to make friends with the wind and the birds. I have been trying all this time to get back to you. A sweet robin was able to plant me underneath this table so that I could finally regenerate in the earth and become a whole tree again. So that I could see you again.

“Then you can come home!” Cedric said. “Ms. Mayhew lives in your room now, but she won’t mind giving it back to you.”

His mother shook her head. “It’s not that simple. My first tree was hundreds of years old. The older a tree, the more power the Dryad has and the longer they can be away from it. This tree is young, and though I have a body again, I can’t go away from the tree for long. I’m sorry, Cedric.”

Cedric sat there beside the mother that he thought had gone away from him forever. He thought of everything that she had been through and everything that she had done to get back to him. He thought of the tea that Dava had made for him that had been made of wishes.

Looking up at his mother, Cedric’s heart was filled with light. “That’s okay mom. Wishes do come true. I’ll just have to make a few more. I love you, Mom.”

She looked at him and he watched as a tear that was shaped like a raindrop fell from her eyes. “I love you too, Cedric.”  She hugged him a little closer and there was the comforting rustle of leaves.

They stayed that way, listening to the song that the wind made in the leaves, until Ms. Mayhew called Cedric in for dinner.

Or so the story goes…