I am standing
in front of the forest.
The path is different this time,
laid with precious stones
among the cobblestones.
As the sun moves above me,
the light hits one of the stones
at my feet and I can see
that it is a moonstone.
I know that when I enter the trees,
the night will rule.
the trees beckoning,
their leaves welcoming me
to come inside,
I feel like Alice in Wonderland
as she watches the white rabbit
when it slips into the hole
and she chooses to follow.
I stand at the edge of the forest
Wondering where it will take me.
Staring at the pills in my hand,
I feel even more like Alice
and I wonder whether these pills
will make me shrink smaller
or grow larger.
They seem so small,
yet they are full of a magic
all their own. I just wish
I knew what that magic would do.
There is the call of a bird
from within the leaves of the trees.
The sun moves overhead again
and another stone on my path
is lit as if from within.
I can see obsidian and quartz
and I can make out an amethyst
not too far ahead.
I take a pill,
and I can feel the pill start its journey
within me. I nod as if to remind myself
that I can do this.
I have done this before.
my husband takes my hand,
squeezing it to give me strength.
“We’re in this together,” he says.
“You are not alone in the dark.”
I nod to show I understand
and I squeeze his hand,
as if to remind him of the words
that I cannot speak.
He nods to show that he understands.
When I take that first step,
letting the leaves of the trees
bush against my face,
I know that I am not alone
and that makes the light within me
burn brighter than any sun.
We take another step
and though I know that this path
will be a long one,
it will be a journey that we share
together and that holds a magic
all its own.