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It goes without saying that Little Yellow Magnet was a difficult book to write. It was also the most rewarding.
When I first started writing it, I called Little Yellow Magnet my little book of positivity. The idea behind it at first was to write about the positive moments during my journey with multiple sclerosis. The only problem was, I only got to page twenty-seven before I realized I was going about it all wrong.
From the moment I woke on January 31st, 2012 with my body no longer my own to the moment I had the idea to start writing about it; well that was all part of my journey. To focus on only the positive elements of that journey would be doing myself a disservice.
Every step along my path, every moment until now was all part of my journey. I couldn’t just write about the part of it that left me elated. I had to write about everything. This filled me with some trepidation.
Like every writer, I put myself into everything I write. Certain characters are based off of me or events that happened in my life are used in my books. However, that is all done with the smoke screen of fiction. I’m a bit more open when I write poetry, trying to make sense of something, but there is always some sort of poetic licence there.
With a memoir, it would be me on the page with no smokescreen, no great giant head of OZ to hide behind. It would be me, completely and in truth. That was clear to me. If I was going to write this, if I was going to go down the road that I have travelled, there would be no sugar coating of anything.
I took a moment to pause before I put my fingers to the keyboard again. My journey deals with a lot of other issues other than my diagnosis of multiple sclerosis. It talks about already living with cerebral palsy, mental abuse, depression, suicide attempts, dating in the gay community while also having a disability.
I had good long think about whether writing it would be a good idea. I came to the conclusion that, at the very least, it would be a cathartic release for me, a closing off of one chapter and the beginning of a new one. Then, if I did decide to publish it, my hope was that it would help people. There are so many others that are dealing with so many things I’ve touched on in Little Yellow Magnet: dramatic changes, disease, depression, abuse. If the book helps even one person, than that makes everything worth it.
Ultimately, the book is about what it took for me to surmount all my challenges and choose to live. Make no mistake, despite the subject matter, Little Yellow Magnet is about what it took for me to try and live a better life by honouring the life I had, no matter what it involved.
I learned a lot about myself through the writing of Little Yellow Magnet. Having my journey laid out on paper, it was impossible not to. I can’t wait for you all to read it yourselves. It seems amazing that the memoir is almost a reality and that other people will be able to read it.
It’s not that long away now. I can’t believe that, after a year of writing and a year of exits and preparation, that Little Yellow Magnet is almost here. It’s available on March 21st, 2019.
Thanks for being part of the journey.

My love for you defies words.
When I tell you that I love you,
within that word is an ocean
that is calm and stretches for eons,
bathed in the light of the moon.
My love for you defies description.
When I tell you I that I love you,
within that word is a meadow
filled with the scent of earth and flowers
that is bathed in the light of the sun.
My love for you defies language.
When I tell you that I love you,
within that word is a flame
that has grown into a long burning fire,
filled by salient spirit within.
My love for you defies all thought.
When I tell you that I love you,
within that word is a breeze,
a swift wind that carries the sound of song
and the scent of sun as it calms my mind.
Our love has grown.
What was once a small seed,
filled with light and wishes,
has grown taller than our bodies,
bigger than our hearts.
Those wishes have come true,
sent adrift on a wind that flies
over meadow, ocean and fire.
My love for you defies all description,
but the love we have for another
goes beyond all of that.
I love you from the depths of my spirit
and everything that I have within.
I can’t wait until the love
that we have for one another
touches the cosmos themselves.

When I met you, my heart came alive again.
My life had been one of uncertainty and shadow
and meeting you was like having the lights within me
turned on all at once. I saw the world differently through you.
Over time, you showed my heart what love really was.
I kept waiting to be hurt by you but, as time moved forward,
I realized that you only wanted to love me totally,
support me completely. You really saw who I was.
Now, my heart, body, mind and spirit love you so completely.
You are like a brilliant flame in my life,
and I often hear our souls singing to each other at night.
I never believed in the idea of soul mates until I met you.
Though we’ve spent years together,
Travelling all over the world and seeing sights
that I never thought I would see, made more special,
more meaningful because I was with you,
it feels like I’ve spent only a moment with you.
I find it impossible to believe that we are approaching
five years together and two year married,
when it feels like only a second of time has passed.
Michael, I want to spend the rest of my eternity with you,
not travelling behind or in front of you,
but taking you by the hand and journeying onward
through the life we have built together.
I want to grow old with you, I want to take care of you.
I want to watch the bond that we have together
grow stronger and more whole, as the years take us
on this dance of life.
Most of all, I want to love you and be loved by you.
I have never had a love like the love that we share.
It has only grown stronger every minute, every hour, every day.
It is like a flower that blooms inside of us, pulsing with light.
So now that you have helped my heart come alive once more,
its beats have become a music that my soul dances to,
its light shines outward and the air around me sparkles,
as I take on every day with the gift of your love,
and you’ve showed me what love can be,
this glorious gift that shines between us and within us,
something that has only grown more stronger
and more beautiful with each passing day.
I’d like to give you my heart,
naked and full of light,
but I don’t really need to give it to you,
because it’s already yours.

How awesome is this? My memoir, Little Yellow Magnet, is almost here!
Here’s the synopsis for Little Yellow Magnet:
Life can change in an instant. Jamieson learns this the hard way.
Waking one morning to find he has little-to-no motor control, Jamieson only wants the world to return to how it had been before. After a diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis, he thinks his life is over. What he doesn’t know is that it’s only just begun.
Trying to navigate through the world in a body he no longer understands, Jamieson must travel through the dark forest of depression while waging a constant battle against himself. Over time, he learns what he’s truly capable of, and what it actually means to be courageous.
Follow Jamieson as he loses himself…then discovers who he is really meant to be.
It will be published in March 2019, just in time to celebrate the Spring Equinox. It’s been a long journey; a year of writing and a year of getting it ready. It’s hard to believe that it’s almost here!
I’ve already had some lovely people say equally lovely things about the book. Here’s what they had to say:
Jamieson Wolf is a gifted writer! ~ Kelley Armstrong, author of the Women of the Otherworld Series
Jamieson Wolf has written a compelling story about navigating multiple sclerosis and cerebral palsy. His story will touch your heart, make you cry, then laugh, and inspire you. A touching memoir with a bit of magic…and tarot! ~ Theresa Reed, author of The Tarot Coloring Book
Honest. Raw. Gripping. An incredible journey that refuses to gloss over the ugly. Little Yellow Magnet inspires…but only in the best way. ~ Cait Gordon, co-editor of Nothing Without Us
Jamieson Wolf’s Little Yellow Magnet is the memoir of a man becoming. At its generous, loving heart, it is a parable of finding strength, finding home, finding love, and ultimately, finding your way. ~ Stephen Graham King, author of A Congress of Ships
As I read, Jamieson Wolf taught me to dance to the beats of his heart. Tender, heartbreaking and beautiful. ~ Caroline Smailes, author of Finding Martha Lost
I’m so thrilled to be able to share it with all of you! Stay tuned for more info! And thanks for being a part of my journey.