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Posted on December 31, 2018 by Jamieson Wolf
I wrote this story for my Writing Sister, Kimberlee. Happiest of Birthdays honey! Sending sparkles and love!
Once upon a time, or so the story goes, there lived a Queen in a land beyond Inglewood Hamlet. She was very wise but also carried with her a terrible curse…
Looking out at her lands, Kimberlee sighed.
There was still so much to do and so little time in which to do it. It didn’t help that Xander, her constant friend and advisor, was pacing the floor behind her like a dog that was looking for a bone.
“Xander, stop pacing. You’re going to fall through the floor.” Kimberlee said, not unkindly.
She stood and walked over to him, placing a hand on his shoulder. “I’m okay, really.”
Xander let out a huff. “No, you are not. Look at you! Have you looked in a mirror lately? The curse is eating away at you!”
Walking towards a mirror that hung in her chambers, its edges done in silver filigree that had been shaped like stars, Kimberlee took in her appearance. It wasn’t a pretty sight. Her skin looked ravaged, old before its time and had taken on a translucent quality. When the early light from the morning came across her skin, Kimberlee looked as if she were transparent.
She ran a finger along the filigree around the mirror. “I have looked at myself, Xander. I don’t see what that will do for me, as there isn’t much left to look at.”
“You must stop this.” Xander said.
“I cannot. You know I cannot.”
“But the curse will take everything away from you.”
“No,” She said. Turning away from the mirror, she looked at him. She walked towards him and took his hand in hers. “It’s not taking anything from me. I am happily giving it away. It is the way magic works.”
“Yes, but your curse!” Xander said, urgently.
She patted his hand. “It is the way of my curse. There must always be a price for magic, my lovely Xander. You know this.”
“A price yes, but not your life. For every grain of magic, you put out there into the world, maybe it causes the trees to wilt or the petals on flowers to fall into the wind or the waters to rile up and increase the tides. It shouldn’t take your life from you.”
They had arrived at the crux of the matter, as she knew that they would; as they always did. They had had this argument many, many times over the days, months, years and decades together. Kimberlee had heard these same words over the millennia that they had been together.
“Xander, I know this. We’ve had this same conversation many times and nothing has changed for me. This land thrives and survives on magic. Would you rather the land dies and withers away, that the people that live within the kingdom of Inglewood Hamlet suffer when they are my responsibility?”
She went to her balcony and looked out at the land once more. It practically shone in the bright sunlight of the day. “I have kept this land and the magic within it alive for so long that to let it fade because of my wish to live, well that would be a tragedy that I can’t contemplate. If there is another way, I have yet to find it.”
“But they don’t even know you are keeping the land and their magic alive.” Xander whispered. They had had this argument often, too.
“That is the way it must be.” She said. Kimberlee went back into her chambers and sat on the edge of her bed. “Now, leave me Xander. I’m tired. This mornings pull of magic was strong and I want to rest for a while.” She stroked his face. “Precious Xander, do not worry. This is the way of things.”
Xander watched Kimberlee lay down and he placed a kiss on her forehead. He would not let this happen. He would not lose her and would not let the land pass into shadow. Xander knew that this is what would happen if nothing was done. Goddesses need energy and magic, too, only it was difficult nowadays. When no one believed in you, you began to wither away.
Xander wouldn’t let that happen. He stepped out of her chambers and began to shift and slide into his true form. It took only a moment and there was a shower of sparkles that filled the air and then settled on the ground around him. Xander had resumed his true form.
He was and had always been a border collie. Kimberlee had found him one morning while she was enjoying a walk in the enchanted woods nearby and had given him his human form, as she was so desperate for some company. Since her touch, he had been able to change back and forth at will.
He would bring them to her, all these people that lived with the benefit of Kimberlee’s magic. The instinctive function of a border collie is to herd. Xander would bring a herd to Kimberlee. Shaking out his fur, Xander left the dwelling he shared with Kimberlee and set off out of the forest, across the desert towards the town of Inglewood Hamlet. He knew where it was, having gazed at it for eons across the sands.
The town of Inglewood Hamlet gave off a subtle pulse of magic so that it shone softly, even in complete darkness. There were always magics and miracles happening there. Xander let the magic pull him towards the town.
When Xander came to the border of the town, there was a thrum of magic running through the air. He knew that Kimberlee had put that border there to keep everyone safe. Would it let him go through? Putting one paw over the border to Inglewood Hamlet, Xander felt a warm caress of magic, almost as if Kimberlee were welcoming him.
Feeling nothing amiss, he stepped completely into the town and headed towards the town square. He wanted to reach the greatest number of people possible. Xander knew that she wasn’t going to perish tomorrow, but he had to reach as many people as possible. He didn’t know how he would do it, Xander just knew that he had to try.
As he walked through Inglewood Hamlet, he noticed the most curious thing. His body was changing back to that of his human form. With each step, he became less canine, less animal and more human. With every step, he shed away more of his fur so that by the time he got to the town square, he was dressed in his soft brown and white travelling clothes that he wore in his human form. The colours of the clothes matched those of his fur.
He stood there, wondering how he was going to get his message to the people of Inglewood Hamlet. How could he help them to believe in the otherworldly when they already believed in and used magic on a daily basis? How could he get them to believe that the magic came from someone as unexplainable as the magic they possessed?
Xander spied a store that sold musical instruments. He walked towards it and went inside. The shopkeeper, a man with brilliant red hair and green eyes.
“Hello, sir! What can I help you with? We have many harps on sale, and a delightful harpsicord. There are also several stringed instruments to choose from. What tickles your fancy?”
Taking a look around the shop, Xander spied something that would do the job nicely. “I’d like that flute, please, if it’s for sale.”
“Oh, it is! Isn’t it lovely? Made entirely from silver and fashioned by the wind. Shall I have it wrapped for you?” He held up some brown paper and twine.
Xander shook his head and put money on the counter. “I’d like to play it now, if I may.”
“Of course, sir.” He looked at the pile of gold on the counter. “Please sir, this is too much.”
Smiling, Xander said, “Keep it. It’s for you and the kindness you’ve shown me today.”
Exiting the store, Xander went to the centre of the town square and stood in the shining sun. There were a few people who saw him who later said that, just for a moment, the face of a dog looked at them, and then he was a man again. It was probably the heat of the day, they thought later.
Putting the flute to his lips, Xander began to play. He didn’t play any particular tune or song, more he played what came to mind when he thought of Kimberlee and her gift to these people. He thought of everything that she had given up, everything that she meant to him. Xander played from the depths of his heart and the deepness of his soul. His song was given more power because it was fashioned from the air within him.
When the last breath of air left his lips and the final note was played, there was silence all around him. He waited to hear the people declaring their love for Kimberlee, their knowledge of everything that she had given to them and their belief in her.
Instead, he heard and saw something far different.
Across from him, a man who had been walking by an older woman stopped and turned around and helped her carry her purchases. A young man walked hand in hand with the man he loved and stopped to share a kiss. A woman who had been admonishing her small son a moment ago looked at him with a feeling of such love that the air around her seemed to sing.
Everywhere he looked, he saw signs of love. An older couple clasped hands and walked with a skip in their steps as they were joined by a younger couple who had two small children with them. Xander saw the similarities and realized that he was looking at three generations of one family. They were unified and whole.
There was a subtle music in the air too, made up of laughter and conversation, the sound of horse’s hooves on the cobblestone, the tinkle of glassware and the clink of silverware. He turned and saw people dining at the local restaurant, meat pies and ale at the ready.
This was not what he meant to do, but where the square had been mostly empty and quiet before, his music had created the joyful scene in front of him. Xander was saddened, though. He had meant to herd the people towards Kimberlee, to show them that they had to believe in her.
“Oh, sweet friend.” Said a voice beside him. “They already do.”
Turning, Xander saw Kimberlee standing beside him, looking younger than she had in a very long time. “But I wanted them to realize their magic came from you!” Xander said. “I wanted them to believe in you and help to make you better.”
Kimberlee gave him a brilliant smile. “But don’t you see what you’ve done, Xander? You’ve helped them to realize something far more important.”
“What could that be?”
“Why, that the magic comes from within them, of course. I may feed the land the magic it requires, but their belief in magic and their own skills helps to keep me alive. You’ve reminded them of that.”
“What, they create magic with conversation and eating?”
“Yes, and with singing and painting and with love, Xander. Love is the greatest of all magics and you have filled the village of Inglewood Hamlet with so much love, all because of your love song to me.” She placed a hand on his shoulder. “Thank you, my friend.”
“You’re welcome.”
They watched the scene of joy for a moment longer. Then, Kimberlee turned to Xander. “Fancy a walk in the woods? It’s been so long since I’ve enjoyed that.”
Xander nodded and let himself shift back into his other form with a little poof of smoke, wind and light. People who saw this later said that they must have imagined it, that it had been a woman with her dog the entire time.
So the story goes…
Posted on December 28, 2018 by Jamieson Wolf
I walk into a bar
and the air is filled
with smoke and the scent
of old beer and sweat.
I hear the chatter of voices,
some of them raised in laughter,
others singing karaoke.
I move through fog of smoke
and someone grabs my arm.
“Hey.” He says. “Long time no see.”
His grip tightens. He smiles at me,
his small blue eyes are almost
lost within the folds of skin and his black hair is cut short.
“Why are you out? No one said you could go out.”
He tries to pull me to the front door,
tries to control my path as he used to.
“I really expected better of you.” He says.
He makes a tsk tsk sound. “Such a disappointment.”
His lips stretch themselves into a sneer.
“You were nothing then and you’re nothing now.”
I pull away from him and watch his smile falter.
I try to convey everything that I am feeling
with a look and words that hold a spark.
“You no longer have power over me.”
I walk away from him, letting the fog take me
and, as I step away from him,
the fog takes my memories of who I was with him.
Someone bumps into me from behind.
I turn to find it is someone else I used to know,
his bald head and ice blue eyes shining in the darkness.
“Watch where you’re going. You never did that, did you?”
He grins and I remember that grin. It always came
before he used his words to hurt me.
He looks displeased with me already.
“You always had your fucking nose in a book, didn’t you?”
He smiles now, but there is nothing warm within it.
“You were always my little freak. Don’t worry,”
Here he pinches my love handles like he use to,
“I can finally design your workout.”
He grips my love handles tighter, pinching the skin.
“You will finally be attractive.”
I pull myself out of his reach and when I look at him,
the spark that was in my words
has grown to a fire that is within my eyes.
He backs away from me and the fire begins to grow.
“Your opinion of me no longer matters.” I say.
I move even deeper into the fog of smoke,
the smell of cheap beer and sweat growing stronger.
I am looking for the exit, wanting to leave,
to be away from this place.
I see it and begin to move towards it,
but he steps into my path, blocking the exit.
I see his blond hair and cold blue eyes
before I see him. They seem to almost
glow within the smoke-filled shadows.
“You don’t deserve to be happy”
He says, by way of greeting me.
When he lays a hand on my arm,
I can’t help but shiver.
“You’re a broken man now.”
He says this in a whisper
and there is joy running throughout those words.
“No one else will want you. You’re lucky to have me.”
He looks me up and down and shakes his head sadly.
“Why don’t you just take yourself out of the equation?”
He slides closer to me and his smile is terrifying.
“Broken men don’t deserve happiness.”
I look him right in the eyes and smile at him.
His pale blue eyes widen in fear.
“I will no longer hear you.” I tell him.
At these words, the smell of sweat and cheap beer
begins to fade and, as I walk away from him,
I can feel the hold that he has over me,
the hand clenched like a fist within the mirror of myself,
begin to dissipate until it is no longer a concern.
I step through the exit to the bar,
and the air cool and fresh in my nose and on my skin.
A soft breeze teases my senses and a soft rain
begins
to
fall
softly.
I stand there,
letting it wash
all the smoke
away.
Posted on December 23, 2018 by Jamieson Wolf

You have been an absolute blessing.
Every year, I wonder how the new year will make me better, how I will learn and grow and prosper. I promised myself, way back in 2014, that I would live more and I continue to stay true to that promise.
This year saw quite a few milestones, a lot of different things published and a lot of new memories made. I am constantly looking at my life, wondering what I did to be lucky enough to be living it.
I learned a lot about myself this year. I learned what I was capable of and how to relax and let joy find me. I’m still trying to learn how to take it easy and not do quite so much, but I’m a fabulous work in progress.
January and February were spent just trying to find our footing after the busy holiday season.
March

In March, I released my fifth volume of poetry, Singing to the Sky. It is the fifth in my Elemental Poetry series and I couldn’t be happier with how it turned out. I set down to write poems only when Spirit moved me to do so.
You can find it here: https://www.amazon.ca/Singing-Spirit-Jamieson-Wolf-ebook/dp/B07CJPG7YL/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1545596160&sr=8-1&keywords=Singing+to+the+Spirit+Jamieson+Wolf

April

April was full of so many wonderful and fabulous things! Michael and I celebrated out first Wedding Anniversary! I can’t believe it’s already been a year and that we’ve been together for four years. It feels like I only met him a month ago! He fills me with so much joy. He has taught me what true love is and every day is a joy and a blessing because I get to wake up beside him and fall asleep beside him. He has shown me that magic really does exist.

My new novel from Renaissance Press was released. Life and Lemonade is the second book in the Lemonade series and I love this book so much. Blaine and friends have filled up my life and it’s a joy to let the books pages fill up with their lives. You can get your copy here: https://renaissancebookpress.com/product/life-and-lemonade/

I also did the MS Walk at the end of April. This year, I raised well over $1,000 for research that will lead to the end of Multiple Sclerosis. I am so grateful to everyone who walked with me and everyone who donated. We all walked 5KM in an hour and ten minutes. That’s awesome and a great improvement on last years time! Woohoo for us!
May

May started with the book launch for Life and Lemonade! It launched along with a few other titles and I got to wear a costume! I was dressed as Duke William Tremontaine from the Tremontaine novels. SO MUCH FUN! And, bonus, I had hair! LOL

My first erotica novel in quite a few years was released. The Color of Love: Starboy book one. It was published by Cobblestone Press and I’m so happy with it. It’s a novelette and, while it’s a quick read, it’s a wonderful story. You can get your copy here: http://www.cobblestone-press.com/catalog/books/thecoloroflove.htm

I also got a new tattoo! The Wild Unknown is my favourite Tarot deck of all that I have. There’s just something in it that sings to my soul. I decided to treat myself for m 40th Birthday and get a new tattoo. I picked my favourite card from the deck, the Strength card. It was done by Pat at Living Colour Tattoo.
June
I had new author photos taken with Susie Shapiro. I am so thrilled with her work. She was able to find the true me and help that to shine through. She captured my spirit with the photos that she took and I’m just forever thankful for them. You can find out more about Susie and her work here: https://susieshapiro.format.com/
July

This novel saw the release of my next erotic romance novel, Hallowed: The Elementals Book One. I am so thrilled with this book and have been busy planning the plot for the next four books. You can get your copy here: http://www.cobblestone-press.com/catalog/books/hallowed.htm
August

This month brought quiet a few milestones!
It was my 40th Birthday! With that came a party! I had such an awesome time celebrating with friends and family. It was a Harry Potter theme party, so I of course dressed appropriately.

Michael took me on my first cruise all the way to Alaska! First though, I got to experience the gorgeous splendour of Vancouver British Columbia. It really was spectacular

When we were in Alaska, we did so much! One memory is zip lining off of a mountain that was higher than the Empire State Building. I can’t believe everything I experienced on this trip and know that I will remember my 40th Birthday for the rest of my life.

The cruise was a dream. Seeing Alaska was incredible and they are memories I will carry with me for a long time to come.
September
As fall took hold, I wanted to add to my tattoo. It didn’t feel quite done with just the Strength card, so I wanted to add my two other favourite cards to the Strength card: The Ace of Swords and The Ace of Wands. Pat from Living Colour did these ones, too and they look like a three card reading on my arm.

We were also fortunate enough to see Elton John perform for the Goodbye Yellow Brick Road Tour. He played for three hours and it was the best concert I’ve ever experienced. Such an amazing singer, writer and performer.
October

October brought a lot of joy too! My new novel, Witchcraft and Anchovies, was released! It’s a favourite of mine and I’m so happy it’s out there in the world. You can buy your copy here: https://www.amazon.ca/Witchcraft-Anchovies-Jamieson-Wolf-ebook/dp/B07JL6G5CY/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1545599858&sr=8-1&keywords=Witchcraft+and+Anchovies


I also took part in Can-Con again! I was on a romantic panel and what creates romantic relationships. I was honoured to be on a panel with so many other talented authors and to meet readers of my books.
November


In November, Michael and I went to Cuba! This time, we sent to Santiago de Cuba. It was breathtaking and gorgeous. It was fascinating to learn so much about its history. It felt like we were in another world.

I was also fortunate enough to have both Lust and Lemonade and Life and Lemonade entered into the Ottawa Public Library! How wonderful is that? I’m ecstatic that people can check my books out from the library.
December

And how cool is this? Life and Lemonade made it on a Best Books of 2018 list! This novel was really personal to me and so very special. I’m so glad that the response for it has been so good! You can check out the best books list here: https://caitgordon.com/2018/12/03/my-2018-list-of-you-gotta-read-them-books/

I released my annual holiday story earlier this month. I wanted to write a story about a chosen family. So I figured why not write about Blaine and friends from the Lemonade Novels? I figured I’d go back to the beginning and write a prequel. Thus, Mistletoe and Lemonade was born! You can read it for free and can download your copy here: https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/911759
And that’s a wrap on 2018! I am so thankful to everyone that has made this year so wonderful and filled it with so much joy. I am so grateful for the life I have. I am also thankful for all of you who are with me on this journey.
I wish for all of your lives to be filled with joy this holiday season. Until next year! See you in 2019!
Posted on December 23, 2018 by Jamieson Wolf
When I look into your eyes,
I see galaxies contained within.
The stars move and flow
within layers of hazel, blue and green.
They entrance me and when I stand still
and gaze into their depths,
They fill me with hope
because you see me, al of me,
and love me still.
When I touch your lips with mine,
I see memories contained within.
Each kiss holds a memory
that we have created together,
of heat and fire on cold days,
warmth and flame to that are a constant.
Each kiss reminds me why
I fell in love with you.
You’ve given me a world of hope,
one of magic made real,
of dreams come true.
When I hold your hand,
I see the journeys contained within.
Each time I take your hand,
I am given a vision of the places we have been,
the terrain that we have ventured across,
oceans, mountains, great expanses of sand.
You have taken me further than
I ever thought possible.
Though we travelled to unknown lands,
I never experienced a moment of fear,
as long as I had hold of your hand.
You bring me balance, support, stability,
though sometimes the ground I walk upon
can be shaky and tumultuous.
Though all of this, there is a shining beacon
of the love that we share
and the life that we
have grown.
Together, we contain multitudes.
I can’t wait to see where we
go from here.
Posted on December 15, 2018 by Jamieson Wolf
I am nothing.
Don’t you dare tell me that
I am capable of anything I put my mind to.
I am a failure and can’t do anything right.
I won’t believe you when you tell me that
I am unique and special.
I am pathetic and not worth anyone’s time.
I won’t listen when you tell me that
I am amazing and I sparkle with a bright internal fire.
I won’t hear you when you tell me that everything I think about myself is wrong.
I won’t listen to what you say.
(now read the poem bottom up)

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