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My body is built from
walls of bone.
They have been covered
with wallpaper
in a soft coloured hue.
There are hardwood floors
that run throughout the house.
They’ve suffered some water damage
and have become warped over time,
so walking might be a little tipsy.
There are photos that hang
upon the walls
and there are shelves
covered with nicknacks.
Each one of them tell a story,
a memory.
If you put them all in a line,
they will show you the path
my body has been on.
There are large picture windows
that let in the most gorgeous
amount of light
and they make the furniture,
careworn and old,
look brand new.
There is a washroom
that is covered in black and white tile
that is cracked in a few places.
There is an old clawfoot bathtub
big enough to fall asleep;
there is a book on the tiled floor,
half read.
If you go to the topmost floor,
as high as you can go,
you will find a library there,
a massive room filled to the brim
with towers of books.
The attic seems to go on forever,
filled with books I have read
and books that I have written.
The air smells musty
and is full of the scent of paper.
As I take in the house,
every nook and cranny,
all the cracks and holes,
the doors that don’t quite close,
or the faucet that always drips,
I am filled only with love.
As the sun falls along the wonky floorboards,
filling the house with light,
I realise that I am finally
at home in my body.
I am finally at home
in me.

* This poem is for Christine, the brightest Star I know. 🙂
There is a glow within you
and it emanates from you
in subtle waves that flow
like the ocean.
You don’t merely walk
upon the ground,
for you know that every step
is a part of your journey.
Each step you take
leaves a bit of magic
in your wake;
it floats like stardust in the air.
In your dreams,
you are looking down
from high up in the clouds.
When the sky is dark,
the magic that you’ve left
upon this Earth
shines the brightest.
When you look down,
you can see every step
that you’ve taken.
You can trace them
from the beginning,
but you can’t see its end.
You follow your pathway of stars
as far as you can
until they disappear into forever.
Your journey is only beginning,
and you carry within you
the infinite cosmos and galaxies untold.
For you are a Star
that walks upon this Earth.
and our world is brighter
because of you.
Sometimes,
when I am asleep,
I dream of who I used to be,
who I left behind.
I can usually see his shadow first,
made of smoke and mist.
I watch as he stumbles,
as he tries to do
control a body
that is no longer his.
I approach him and he starts,
frightened of the mist
becoming another.
“I thought I was alone down here.”
He says.
“I’m always alone.”
I pull him into an embrace,
try to communicate everything
I wish someone had said to me
while I walked around
inside the darkness
of myself.
“You are not alone.”
I say.
“I am always with you.”
I stand back to brush a hand
along his brow, hoping that
he can feel the light
I’m giving
him.
As the darkness begins to lessen,
and the brightness of reality intercedes,
I look at him,
at me,
one last time.
I see a kernel of light,
pulsing in his forehead
where I touched him.
It is a seed
about to
grow.

Though I struggle with a lot,
loving you is the easiest thing to do.
I don’t have to even think about it,
my love for you is a constant vibration
that shines through me like the sun.
Though I may have difficulties
that often set me back,
loving you moves me forward.
Before you, my path was filled with shadows.
Now, it is filled with sunshine and,
though we can’t see the end,
I am not afraid when I am with you.
There are times when I feel
that I can’t do it,
that it’s not possible,
that it won’t work.
You have only to hold out your hand
and utter the words “You’ve got this.”
to help me believe that anything is possible.
Though life passes us by,
moving quickly so that
one second
one hour
and one day tend to blend together,
there is one thing in my life
that has remained timeless:
You, glorious you.
Loving you is the easiest thing to do
and you are proof
that magic is real.
Our love grows
like a tree.
It bloomed from
a seed that
was planted the
moment I first
saw you. The
tree grew, watered
by that love,
helped it thrive.
Every time you
told me that
you loved me,
a branch grew.
Each time you
kissed me, a
leaf, full of
colour, grew along
the branches. You
are the man
that I wished
for so long
ago, that I
dreamed of and
hoped for. Until
you, all I
have known is
unkindness and conflict
and the trees
that have grown
have been stunted
and dark. When
I think of
you, it is
as if the
sun comes out
to greet me,
filling my mind,
spirit and body
with light that
is so pure,
so warm, that
the cold can
no longer find
me. Now, when
I look up
at the branches
of the tree
that we have
grown, I see
a sea of
leaves in a
a riot of
colours. I see
the nests that
have been built
within the branches,
the birds that
have made their
home amongst the
leaves. The tree
is in the
centre of my
mind and it
hasn’t reached its
full height. The
tree is but
a sapling in
terms of time.
We have a
timeless love, years
passing by in
what feels like
days. I can’t
wait to watch
the tree grow,
as it stretches
itself through air,
earth, fire and
water, through the
very fabric of
time. With each
new leaf that
grows, know that
my love for
you grows every
day until it
is brighter than
the sun.