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in days. I
would lay awake
at night, waiting
for sleep to
come, but it
wouldn’t. I would
take warm baths,
drink herbal tea,
but sleep still
eluded me. It
had been seven
days since I
had known sleeps
embrace and I
was starting to
lose it, even
though I didn’t
know what “it”
was. I started
to see things,
objects and people
that couldn’t possibly
be there, while
I was awake.
The shadows of
the waking dreams
moved along my
bedroom walls, along
the sidewalks,
showed their reflections
upon store windows.
The mirror people
would glare at
me as I
passed by, watching
me, almost as
if they were
measuring my worth.
The mannequins would
move closer to
the windows, hoping
to catch a
glimpse of me
though the reflections
that shouldn’t be
there but were.
Then the unthinkable
happened. In bed
one night, waiting
hoping, praying for
sleep, I watched
as the shadows
moved and slithered.
They whispered as
they moved along
the walls. I
watched them as
they shaped themselves
into an arch
of branches. There
were thorns running
along them. Even
though they were
merely shadows, I
knew they would
draw blood. In
front of the
arch was a
sign that merely
said three words:
Sleep, This Way.
I knew I
would have to
walk through the
arch. I gathered
up my courage
and walked through
the thorns. Breathing
deeply, I did
so, feeling the
bite and caress
of the thorns
and brambles. There
was darkness for
a moment, just
for a second and
the smell of
sweat and age,
rot and filth.
When my eyes
cleared, I found
myself in an
alley. There was
but one light
that hung high
up on one
wall, flickering like
a candle flame.
I could see
shadows along the
ground, shapes that
I knew were
other people. I
wondered if any
of them were
the reflections, the
dream people that
had watched me.
I walked down
the alley, the
arch of thorns
having disappeared. Several
of these shapes
called out to
to me in
gruff, angry voices,
men and women,
the lost people.
“I didn’t do what they said. You gotta believe me. I didn’t.”
“I need a drink real bad, just one drink. Any drink.”
“I used to be so pretty, so pretty. I could have my pick of men.”
“I didn’t mean to kill her, but she was asking for it. So was he.”
“You gotta wear a foil hat, man. Otherwise they can hear your thoughts. “
“I’m so hungry. Spare a bite to eat?”
I walked on,
faster, faster, faster.
The alley and
the forgotten went
on forever and
my footsteps were
loud in the
darkness, each step
a crunch of
gravel, glass or
stone, each grab
of their arms
like the thorns
on the arch
I had walked
though to get
here. I pulled
myself away and
broke into a
run, trying to
find the end
of the alley.
The light was
flickering madly off
of the brick
walls and there
was no ending
in sight that
I could see.
Then, in front
of me, a
shadow person stood,
detaching himself from
the mass of moving
thorn people. He
held out his
hands, telling me
to stop without
words. I tried
to run past
him, but he
grabbed hold of
me, held tight
until I stopped
struggling. The entire
time it took
me to calm
down he was
talking to me:
“It’s okay man, it’s okay. I’m not going to hurt you, I’m not going to hurt you. It’s okay.”
I stopped and
looked at him.
He was grimy
and covered in
filth like the
rest of them
but there was
clarity in his
face. He smiled
at me and,
despite my fear,
I smiled back.
“You’re going about this all wrong, you know.”
“What do you mean?”
My voice echoed
off the walls.
“You can keep running forever, if you want to. Makes no difference to me.”
“What else can I do?”
“Well, you can focus on the person who’s dreaming of you for starters.”
“But I’m not sleeping.”
“I know. Legend says that when you can’t sleep, someone else is dreaming about you and you’re awake in that person’s dream.”
“That doesn’t make sense.”
“Does any of this?”
He motioned around
us at the
walls and the
flickering light, at
the mass of
shadows that were
people. He gave
me another grin.
“This is where your nightmares come from. Dreams don’t make any sense. They are pieces of our life we’ve already lived.”
I found myself
nodding, knowing he
was speaking truth.
“So what do I do? How do I leave this place?”
“Well now, that’s simple. You have to focus on the person who’s dreaming of you and go to them.”
“I can do that?”
“Sure. It’s your dream, isn’t it?”
I turned around
in a circle,
looking at the
shadows. I turned
back to the
man, his eyes
bright and his
smile warm, comforting.
“How do I find the other person? I don’t know how to get back the way I came.”
“You wouldn’t want to. No, your way to him is simple. See that light?”
He pointed to
the light, the
only source of
brightness in amongst
all the shadows.
“That’s him. He’s been watching over you all this time, you know. Even in the darkest of times, he’s there.”
“How do I go to him?”
“Haven’t you figured it out yet? Close your eyes, think on the light. Don’t think about anything else. Go towards the light.”
“Is that like dying?”
He shook his
head back and
forth, laughing and
smiling at me.
“Well, they do call sleep the little death.”
He said, thoughtfully.
“This is a dream, not some horror movie. Some dreams end and some dreams become a reality. That’s the great thing. So just focus on the light, nothing else.”
I did as
he said and
closed my eyes.
I thought of
the light, pictured
it growing brighter.
I could see
the brightness
of the light
growing, even with
my eyes closed,
could even begin
to feel the
heat of it
on my face.
Soon, the fetid
air disappeared and
was replaced with
the smell of
a spicy cologne
and the scent
of honeysuckle. I
heard movement as
someone moved towards
me. I would
not be afraid.
A voice said:
“Open your eyes.”
I did and
saw him and
the feeling of
the light upon
my face flowed
through my whole
body. The light
came from him.
“I dreamt of you.”
He said. I
smiled at him.
“I know.”
I said softly.
Then words weren’t
necessary. There was
only me, only
him, only us
and the gorgeous
possibility of dream.
unable to speak.
It would look
at other people
in love and
wonder what they
were saying to
each other without
speaking. What kind
of unknown language
passed between them?
I despaired of
ever finding someone
who loved me
deeply enough to
speak without speaking,
to touch my
heart with a
simple caress. That
changed when I
met you. The
love between us
grew slowly, starting
as a seed
that was planted
in my heart
the moment we
first kissed. It
was nurtured with
every endearment and
each caress. When
the flower bloomed,
filling me completely,
I heard a
soft buzzing, felt
a throb of
vibration as my
heart began to
respond to yours.
Now, when you
touched me, it
was like you
touched my heart.
Now when you
spoke to me,
it was as
if you spoke
to my soul.
At first, I
was terrified. What
was this unknown
language? What did
it all mean?
You took my
face in your
hands and looked
right into me.
“Don’t be afraid.”
You said to
me. At those
words, my fear
fell away and
a series of
words I had
not known began
to show themselves
appearing as if
something was rubbed
away and the
words were there
the entire time.
All they needed
was someone to
help me see
them. Now when
you look at
me, the words
from the unknown
language become known
all over again.
All it took
was your love
to set the
words, and myself,
free.
getting my coffee
this morning, I
noticed the barista
was wearing a
locket. Looking closer,
I read the
word “Slytherin” in
a flowing script.
Underneath, the serpent
that represented the
house was curled,
as if lying
in wait. I
pointed to it.
“Where did you get that?”
She looked at
me with shrewd
eyes as if
taking stock of
my worth. She
nodded, assessing me
as one who
was completely worthy.
“I got it at Comicon, but I’m sure there is an Etsy shop.”
I held up
my right wrist
and showed her
the scar that
was tattooed there.
She reached out
to touch it.
“Is it a real tattoo?”
I nodded, smiling.
Like recognizes like.
“What house are you in? Did you get sorted on Pottermore?”
I nodded, smiling.
“I was one of the first million people allowed to access the site.”
“So what house?”
“I got sorted into Ravenclaw, but I think I belong in Gryffindor.”
“Oh, no, you have to trust the Sorting Hat. It knows.”
“But I have the scar…”
She gave it
another hungry look.
“That’s a symbol for the whole series. It’s Harry’s story, right? But if the Sorting Hat and JK Rowling put you in Ravenclaw, that’s where you belong.”
I must have
looked put out
so she sang:
“Or yet in wise old Ravenclaw, if you’ve a ready mind, where those of wit and learning, will always find their kind.”
I recognized the
song. It’s what
the Sorting Hat
first sung when
Harry was sorted.
She looked at
me with a
strong, searching look.
“Are you wise? Do you crave knowledge? Are you drawn to air? That’s the element associated with Ravenclaw, you know.”
Something occurred to
me and I
pointed to the
necklace she wore.
“Were you sorted into Slytherin?”
I asked her.
She nodded, a
spark lighting up
her eyes. They
looked as if
they were filled
with glitter magic.
“Yes, I was. I wasn’t happy about it at first, I wanted Gryffindor, everyone does. But we’re all parts of the same house, you know. However, it’s our differences that make us strong.”
I wasn’t sure
if she was
referring to Harry
Potter, or something
deeper than that.
I took my
coffee and bade
her a nice
day. She put
her hand out,
catching my wrist.
“Trust in the Sorting Hat. It knows where you belong. We all have to belong somewhere.”
I nodded and
made my way
to work. I
looked online for
a Ravenclaw necklace.
My acceptance of
my house within
the world of
Harry Potter was
a small thing,
but at the
thought of stretching
my wings like
an eagle, and
soaring into the
air, my heart
soared with it
and I knew
where I belonged.
morning with words
etched into my
skin. I tried to
read them in
mirror, but the
writing was backwards.
My friends noticed
the words and
asked why I
had tattooed myself
with just a
fraction of a
sentence. I woke
the next morning
to find the
words had doubled
on my skin,
snaking down the
inside of my
arm. I went
to the doctors
and they asked
why I had
marked myself with
words. They didn’t
understand when I
told them the
words had just
appeared there on
their own. They
sent me home
with a mild
sedative. When I
woke on the
third morning, I
found that both
my arms were
now covered in
looping black words.
I tried to
read them, attempted
to make sense
of what they
said, but I
could not see
all of the
words. Looking in
the mirror, I
saw they had
started to appear
along the back
of my neck.
My mother was
the one who
explained it to
me. She read
the words, running
her fingers along
some of them,
turning my arms
in order to
read others. She
looked at me.
“Don’t you recognize this?”
I shook my head
no. I shrugged.
“I haven’t been able to see all of them to read them. What does it say?”
“You should know. You wrote them.”
I was shocked.
“What do you mean?”
She pointed to
the words that
ran along the
inside of my
arm, then ran
her fingers along.
“As the cards flew from my grasp, I knew I had made the right decision. I was the Broken Man no longer.”
She paused for
breath, and to
point to another
set of words.
“And this here? These say: I had let a piece of my past go and looked forward to what the future would bring.”
I shook my head,
not knowing what
to say. My
mother took my
hands and held
them in hers.
“Your life is a living poem. A wonderful, exciting, awesome living poem.”
I wondered at
her words, at
what they meant.
What the words
on my skin
meant. She could
see my confusion.
“You put so much of yourself in your words, it is only natural that they will mark you even as you mark the page. Do not be afraid of them.”
“How do I get the words out of my skin?”
She looked at
me with a
half smile and
that wise look
she got in
her eyes, deep
and somehow comforting.
“Write. More words will come and you will always be marked by them, but you are a living poem. It has always been this way.”
I nodded and
pulled a piece
of paper towards
me. I put my
hand down on
the paper and
watched as the words
on my skin
began to slip
and slide off
of it. I
looked at the
page to see
what they had
to say.