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Here’s the book blurb:

Talking to the Sky is a volume of poetry like no other.

Part journey to healing, part memoir, they are moments in time caught on paper as the author learned to write again.

They are a testament to the strength of the human spirit. The poems show us that whatever life throws at us, with courage anything is possible.

Out of 68 books, it’s the book I’m most proud of. I think it is my best book and the reception has been grand!

It’s my favourite out of all the books I’ve written as it helped me find my voice again; and now, I share it with you.

Enjoy!

Doubt Dragons and the Lioness – A Poem

I was moved to go in.Lion woman

Something about the store

called to me. It was as if

there was a heady kind of

music playing from within.

It sounded like flute music,

but soulful and filled with

understanding. When I went in,

a set of chimes rang above

my head. I was struck by

how warm and inviting

the store was, how alive

I felt within the confines

of its walls. I knew that

nothing could hurt me here.

Standing behind the counter

was the source of the light

the thrived around me.

She had a brilliant smile

and black hair that framed

her face in a riot of curls.

I blinked and, for a second,

thought I saw a being in front

of me like a lioness, staring

into me with bright yellow

eyes that saw everything.

I blinked and she was

the woman again. She

came towards me with

her hands held out.

“Hey stranger!”

I didn’t know how to

respond to her.

“Hello. Have we met before?”

She gave me a

wise look and I could

swear that her eyes

changed from blue to yellow

and back again.

“Oh, we’ve all met before. You look like a man in need.”

“In need of what?”

“We’re all in need of something. I sense that you need help with doubt.”

My breath was taken from me.

“How could you know that?”

She gave me another wise look.

“We’re all filled with doubt, some more than others. Some are easy to slay, others take a little bit more persuasion.”

I found myself nodding, knowing

that she knew what lived inside

of me, despite my best intentions.

“How do I do that? How do I slay them?”

Her eyes became yellow again

for a moment and I saw the

ears of a lioness poking through

her curly black hair. Then

she was herself again. I

wondered which face was

truly hers, the lady or the lioness,

or if they were one and the same?

“Doubts are like Dragons. You can’t slay them with swords or knifes though. You can only slay them with your will. It has to be strong.”

“It is strong. It is.”

I knew this. I knew this

with all of my heart.

“Then you must take that strength and use it. Envision your life, exactly as it should be. Do this every single day. Feel it, smell it, hear it.”

“Then the doubt dragons will leave?”

“Only if you envision them gone. Envision your life exactly as you want it. The Doubt Dragons will lose interest and fly away; but you have to let them go.”

I was silent for a moment,

knowing that she spoke

only the truth. Already

I felt a surge of warmth

inside me, knowing that

I was going to be okay.

“Thank you.”

She laughed and the

sound was like the wind chimes

that had been above the

door of the Lioness’ shop.

“Oh, don’t thank me. You’ve got to do all the work. I just put you on the right path.”

“Can I come and see you again?”

She took my hand then and

I felt her warmth. It was

like she embodied the sun.

“Come and see me anytime. I’ll be here.”

As I left the store, the wind chimes

sang again. Their music

made me think of angels

getting their wings. I

wondered if I had just

been given my own.

 

* For Heather, with my thanks and gratitude. You’re awesome. 

The Forever Forest – A Poem

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the forest, you

took my hand.

A shiver of

warmth spread through

me and I

heard a sound

on the wind

that was made

from a thousand

branches clattering together.

I looked at

the dark forest

and felt a

moment of trepidation.

You squeezed my

hand and pulled

me even closer.

Don’t be afraid. I’m with you.

I shook my

head, my voice

thick in my

throat. Finally, I

pushed it out.

I’ve already been here. This was part of my journey. I know this forest well.

You looked at

me with such

kindness, such warmth.

Now you don’t have to go through the forest alone. I’m beside you.

You started forward

and I followed.

As we approached

the first set

of trees, they

started to change.

The bark started

to shift, growing

more whole, their

pockmarks and cracks

repairing themselves, the

branches growing straighter,

reaching for the

sky. I watched

as leaves began

to bloom on

the branches, the

green bright against

the bark. You

pointed deeper into

the forest and

I saw that

all the trees

were healing, becoming

whole again, leaves

re-growing. I felt

a light growing

inside of me,

pulsing through me,

living inside of

me. I looked

at you and

even you seemed

brighter to me.

What did you do to me?

You did this yourself. You’ve grown anew, just like the trees.

You motioned to

the forest and

smiled at me.

Come on, let’s go deeper along the path, as far as we can go.

I’ve already been through here.

This is the same forest, true, but now you’ve found a way forward. Now we can go forward together.

You kissed me

then and I

heard the forest

make a sound

that was like

music. I listened

as a breeze ruffled

all the leaves

at once. It

was as if they

were voicing

their approval. I

entered deeper into

the forest, my

hand in yours,

looking around at

all the trees.

They had been

dark, empty husks

but were now

full of life.

I knew exactly

how they felt.

I squeezed your

hand tighter and

took comfort from

you, from your

touch, from the

love that flowed

from you to

me and back

again. I took

in all of

you and knew

that anything was

possible. There was

nothing to fear

in the trees.

There was only

the promise of

forever. I breathed

you in and

stepped with you,

further into the

forest.

The Voice of Inspiration – A Poem

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Her voice was

a balm to

me. She was

my touchstone, my

rock. I thought

of what she

said, of her

wisdom. I thought

of the endless

nights I had

spent trying to

see through the

fog that engulfed

me, of the

frustration of looking

at a blank

screen. It mocked

me like an

unblinking eye. I

tried to give

words to what

I was feeling.

I’m a writer. I can’t be a writer if I don’t write.

Her voice became

softer. It was

the voice I

always called to

mind when I

imagined her speaking

to me. Hearing

it was no

different. It was

instantly, incredibly comforting:

You will always be a writer, whether or not you’re writing. It’s in you, it’s what you do. It’s who you are. Let the words come on their own. They will come when they are ready.

I carried her

words home with

me, as if

they had a

physical form. When

I got home,

I was weighed

down. I put

my hands in

my pockets and

found they were

full of stones.

Each stone had

a word painted

on one side

in metallic paint

that looked like

water. I let

the stones fall

where they would

onto the floor.

Everywhere a stone

fell, water began

to spread from

beneath it, until

my floor was

covered in water

as deep as

an ocean. Looking

at all the

words shining from

underneath the waves.

Now that I

was no longer

weighed down by

them, it was

time to swim

into the water

and see what

the words had

to say to

me.

 

* Dedicated to my Wonder Mum, who said the words that shone through the water. 🙂

Automatic Writer – A Short Story

33913577.Paulwritinginhisjournalonacliff-e1266429312440“I’m stuck, Christine. I can’t get past this plot point. The characters won’t do what I want them to do.”

Putting down her coffee mug, Christine gave Jason a knowing look. “You do this to yourself, you know. We go through this every time you’re writing a new novel.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, you start writing on whim or an idea and then, when you figure you should actually try to figure out where the novel is going, you try to plot.”

“So? Every writer plots out their books.”

“Some plot, yes, but too much can bog a story down when you’re writing the first draft. The important thing is to get it down on paper.”

“That’s what I’m trying to do.” Jason  tried to keep the impatience out of his voice, but wasn’t entirely successful.

Christine patted Jason’s hand to calm him. “I’m not trying to needle you. It’s the truth. You reach a point where you can’t go any further mostly because you stop yourself. When you write from the heart and don’t think about the story before you write it, that’s when you shine. Hell, you wrote your first novel over a long weekend. You wrote your second novel in a week. You’re not one of those writers that can work within lines and boxes. You’re an automatic writer.”

“You mean like a human Ouija board? Those people that can tell fortunes and things through writing?”

Laughing, she patted his hand again. “No, not like that. Just that when inspiration comes to you, you have to write immediately, you have to get it down. That’s when you do your best work. It’s work that touches people. Writers are kind of like mediums when they write the good stuff.” Christine took a sip of her coffee. “It’s when you over think things too much that you get your writers block.”

“Look who knows so much about my writing habits.”

“Jason, I’m right. Just take your journal out and walk around, sit in a park, see what you see and write what comes to you. Try and prove me wrong.”

Jason had to admit that there was some truth to what Christine had said. His best work seemed to come from somewhere else, as if someone else was guiding the pen on the paper or his fingers over the keyboard. Later, when Jason would look back over what he’d written, he didn’t remember writing any of it.

It was the work he agonized over that he remembered. The stuff that became blockbuster best sellers was the stuff he wish he had remembered writing. Those books were good, even he had to admit that and Jason suffered from what he liked to call the Tragic Writers Clause: everything he wrote was crap.

He knew he was being hard on himself, but all creative types were their own worst critics. It was part of what drove them. However, those books, the ones he wrote as if in a hazy fog, those books were awesome.

Maybe Christine was right. He just had to go out there, sit and wait for some inspiration to come to him. Maybe it would help him work through the novel he was writing now and was considering giving up.

Stopping at his apartment long enough to grab a journal and a pen, he walked down the street to the park that was close by. The sun was shining, the wind was blowing through the grass. If he didn’t find inspiration here, there was a problem.

He was about to put his pen to paper when a woman walked by and sat at the bench next to his. She smiled at Jason and he returned it and then turned to his paper. His hand moved as if of its own accord, sliding over the page with a soft whisper. He wrote: She was so tired lately. Stacey wondered if it was possible to feel so alone when in a relationship. She wondered if she should leave her husband. He was her whole world. She knew he loved her.

Jason heard the woman get up and begin to walk away. There was the clap of something hitting the pavement and Jason looked up to see she had dropped her purse, its contents spilling out all over.

Getting up to help, Jason gathered a change purse, a few tubes of lipstick and an ID pass. He looked at it briefly. Her name was Stacey Jones. Jason gathered the items up and handed them to her. Their hands touched briefly and there was a spark that passed between them. Jason didn’t know if it was this spark or what he had written that made him speak: “It’ll get better, Stacey.”

She gave him a surprised look. “How do you know my name?”

Rather than tell her he had written about her, had been compelled to, he said: “It was on your work pass.”

“Oh,” She said, waving a hand. “Of course. What do you mean by it’ll get better.”

Instead of answering her, he tore the page out of his journal and handed her. “Here. Read this when you get home. Just trust me when I say it will get better. I have a good feeling about it.”

Stacey wasn’t put off by him. Instead she smiled and the smile changed the way she looked instantly. She became instantly younger. “Thank you.” She said. She reached out her hand and touched his arm, just a passing moment between two strangers but they were both lighter in spirit because of it.

Jason sat back down on the bench and took out his journal and pen again when he heard footsteps. Looking up, he saw it was Stacey. She was holding the folded piece of paper and was almost holding it out to him.

“How did you know?” She asked him. “How did you know what I was thinking?”

Jason thought of how to answer her. In the end, he said the first thing that came to mind: “I’m an automatic writer.”

He stood and embraced her briefly before walking away. He had some writing to do but first, he was going to take Christine out for a glass of wine. Jason knew what he had to do now. He just had to sit down and let the story come as it wanted to, that was all that mattered.

His fingers began to itch with the possibility of a story yet to be told…

* Dedicated to Christine, who is lovely and told me what I needed to hear.