The Possibility of Happenstance – A Poem

The possibility thrilled me.older woman

The thought that something was

waiting for me, right around

the corner. All I had to do

was wait for it.

I was impatient though

and couldn’t wait.

I searched for it instead.

I looked everywhere

for this possibility, this

chance encounter that I

wanted with every

fibre of my being.

I looked around buildings

but only saw alley ways.

I looked into windows,

but only saw my reflection.

I looked in stores

and saw only masses

of people passing me by.

I would search the sky

for clues of my future,

I would read the fortunes that

came inside of cookies

to see when it would happen,

to see if it would happen.

I was looking so hard

that I almost missed it,

almost walked by it.

I was out looking at

life passing me by

when a stranger said to me:

“What are you looking for?”

I shook my head.

“I don’t know.”

I didn’t know how

to put into words

the urgency I

was filled with.

The stranger, a woman

wearing a red dress

and black gloves

looked at me with a gaze

that saw everything.

“Well, until you

figure out what you’re

searching for, isn’t half

the fun in living?

Fate knows what it

has in store for you already.

The least you can do is

live your life until fate

delivers your due

and gets itself in order.”

I shook my head.

“I don’t understand you.”

She threw up her hands

in exasperation.

“Why, you have to believe

in the possibility

of happenstance.

You have to engage with life,

truly live it.

Then that chance,

that possibility,

will show itself.”

“How can I do that?”

I asked her. I was

mesmerized by her,

by the conviction

with which she spoke.

“By believing that

the impossible

isn’t so impossible

after all.”

She tipped her

head to me.

“I hope you find

what your searching for.

But have fun

in the meantime, okay?”

She walked on

and I wondered

at the world

that had suddenly

grown brighter

around me.

Trilliums and Telephone Bells – A Short Story

download (1) She took the next caller.

Sarah tried to remind herself to be kind to the person on the other end of the telephone. It wasn’t their fault that she was working this shit job. She tried to remember that; some days it was difficult however.

“Thank you for calling Maximus Internet, how may I help you today?”

Sarah heard the sound of bells on the other end of the line and then a voice said: “Hello? With whom am I speaking to?”

Thrown off for a moment, Sarah took a deep breath. It was going to be one of those days, she just knew it. “You called me sir. How may I help you?”

The man on the other end of the line laughed. It wasn’t a creepy old man laugh, so she was pretty sure he wasn’t going to talk dirty to her. What he said next threw her for a loop regardless.

“Is this Sarah? Sarah Duff? Did I dial the right number?”

She was instantly on her guard. “How did you get the direct number? Sir, this is a call centre, we help customers with their internet.” This came out in a rush of breath. Sarah was freaked now. There was no way the man should know her name.

“Oh, now, don’t worry dear, I just wanted to make sure I’ve gotten the right person. You are Sarah Duff, aren’t you? Oh elephant poop! I told them that an email might be easier, but they said it was too impersonal.”

“I’m sorry sir, but who are you?” And who said elephant poop instead of swearing? She was starting to doubt the sanity of the man on the other end of the telephone line.

“Oh, now you’re all uncomfortable! Of course, where are my manners? My name is Greyhound Clivedale Rivington Johnson the Third, but you can just call me Greyhound. I’m calling to offer you something wonderful.”

Sarah was put off. Why did she always get the crazy people? She’d had three over the phone marriage proposals, one woman who called to talk about her cats different bowl movements, one man who talked like a parrot and a girl who told Sarah that her mother wanted to take the family on a vacation to Mars.

It took all kinds, but why did they always have to get through on her phone? “Sir, do you have a problem with your internet?”

“Oh, you can call me Greyhound, I thought I already said that. Darn this infernal contraption! Can you hear me clearly? HELLO?”

“You’re coming through loud and clear Mr. Johnson.”

“Call me Greyhound dear, Mr. Johnson makes me sound like a packaged ham or some meat product. You are Sarah Duff, aren’t you? At least answer me that. You have nothing to be afraid of, dear.”

Despite this being the weirdest call she had ever gotten, even above the family vacationing on Mars, she relented. “Yes Greyhound. I’m Sarah.”

“Excellent!” There was the sound of bells again. Sarah wondered where he was calling from. “Most excellent. Now I won’t take but a moment of your time. I wanted to tell you that you’ve been chosen for something wonderful.”

“What would that be? Why are you calling me?”

“Oh now, I’m getting to that. You’ve been chosen you see. We do this all the time and it’s never the same person twice. It’s your turn now, isn’t that wonderful?”

“Chosen for what? This isn’t some sort of cult is it?”

“Oh goodness no! We’re giving you  the chance of lifetime! Something that most people don’t ever get to see!”

“And what’s that, exactly?”

“Oh, now I hear you closing your mind, you mustn’t do that. What I have to show you will be amazing. Look at your computer screen.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Just look, Sarah. It’s nothing horrible. It’s magic made visible.”

Sarah heard another sound of bells in her ear as she turned towards the screen. Gone were her documents and files. Instead, it was as if her computer monitor had become a window to another world.

She saw a bright blue sky filled with white clouds. There was a field of grass dotted with white flowers. If she squinted at the screen, she could pretend she was there. “It’s beautiful.”

“Don’t you recognize it, Sarah? It’s from your memory.”

“What do you mean?”

“It’s the place where you were happiest as a child. Don’t you remember it?”

Sarah thought for a moment and the memory burst into her mind. She remembered her mother, the smell of the flowers and the scent of the wind. “It was where we went when I was twelve. It was such a beautiful summer.”

“You carry that meadow inside of you. Haven’t you ever wondered where you go when you dream?”

“If I’ve dreamt of it, didn’t I recognize it at first?”

“People don’t always remember their dreams when they re-enter the waking world Sarah.”

“Then why show it to me now? What’s this chance you were talking about?”

“The chance to gain wisdom. The chance to remember that you carry your happiness inside of you, that the child you were is still alive and well. That regaining that happiness you had as a child is still possible.”

As she watched the screen she saw herself as a child, running into the field, her arms raised to the sky. She heard the sound of her laughter and it filled her with a brightness that defied description.

“I think I’ve forgotten what it was like to be that happy.”

“Your inner child hasn’t forgotten. You have to embrace her again, learn what it’s like to live with happiness. To truly live life again instead of just exist.”

Tears were welling in Sarah’s eyes but they weren’t from sadness. They were tears of joy. Sarah didn’t know she had so much joy in her. “Thank you Greyhound. Thank you.”

“Oh, don’t thank me, Sarah. You’re the one who has held on to your inner child, even if you didn’t know it. I just showed you what was inside of you.”

There was another tinkle of chimes and the sound made the brightness inside of her grow. “What’s with the bells, Greyhound?”

“Oh, you know, every time a bell rings and all that. Now I have one final gift for you. Reach into the screen.”

“What? You can’t do that.”

“Says the woman who thought her inner child was dead and gone. Do this for  me, please.”

Sarah nodded, even though the angel couldn’t see her. She reached out with trembling fingers and was shocked when they didn’t meet resistance. The screen changed then and all she saw was one of the white flowers. She wrapped her hand around the stem without being told and pulled her hand back out holding on to the flower.

Except, when her hand came out of the monitor it went dark and sitting in the palm of her hand was a broach. It was in the shape of the white flower. She remembered its name then. “A trillium.” She said.

“They stand for a lot of things. Purity, ambition, the trinity. For you, Sarah, they represent your childhood. They are a reminder that who you were as a child is not gone. That anything you dream is possible.”

“Thank you, so much. I don’t really know how to repay you.”

“You can repay me by living your life instead of lamenting what you thought it would be. Will you do that?”

“Yes, yes I will.”

“Then we’re all good. Now go live your life, Sarah. It’s been waiting for you.”

She heard one more final sound of bells before the line went silent. The ringing of bells were in her heart, however, and she was filled with their music. The first thing she was going to do was try and find a field of flowers and run through it.

She pinned the trillium broach to the front of her blouse and answered the next call.

“Thank you for calling Maximus Internet. How can I make your day more awesome?”

 

Dedicated to Sarah Duff who is awesome. 

Talking to the Sky – Available Now in Paperback and eBook!

Talking to the Sky best sellerHey Everyone!

I’m so thrilled to announce my first release of 2014!

Talking to the Sky is now available in ebook and paperback!  Valentine’s Day is approaching. What better gift for your loved one than a book of poetry?

Here’s a little bit about the collection:

Talking to the Sky is a volume of poetry like no other.

Part journey to healing, part memoir, they are moments in time caught on paper as the author learned to write again.

They are a testament to the strength of the human spirit. The poems show us that whatever life throws at us, with courage anything is possible.

You can get the ebook here:

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The authorgraph will be sent directly to your Kindle! How cool is that?

Want to know something even cooler? Talking to the Sky is the Number One Best Seller in poetry for Kindle books on Amazon.ca! You can see that below. I’m just THRILLED to pieces!

Either way, I’m so thrilled I get to share this book with you and I hope you enjoy it!

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The Princess of Wands – A Poem

Hey Everyone! Princess of Disks

Here’s my fourth written offering for Pay It Forward 2014. This one is for my friend Carol who asked for a poem. 

I thought of her when I wrote it-and the Tarot as I met her at my first Tarot class. She is lovely and kind and wonderful and one of the most awesome people I know. 

So here you go Carol!

*     *     *

When I saw her for the first time,

I thought my eyes were playing

tricks on me.

She was sitting against

a bright red wall, a soft light

playing off of her skin

and hair, as if she was

surrounded in light.

For a moment, I saw

a woman standing in front

of a dense forest.

She was holding a long staff

with light at that shone

brighter than the sun

in one hand and in the other

a shield made of gold that

held the world.

Then I blinked my eyes

and the vision was gone.

As I grew to know her,

I realized that the light

she had didn’t come

from a staff of shield.

It came from within her,

shining out in waves

that brightened the lives

of any she came close to.

She didn’t need any wand

to make her magic.

She gave it freely to others,

those who were in pain

or suffering from hidden darkness

that the world couldn’t see.

She took their pain

and left only light behind.

She doesn’t need a wand

to make her magic.

She already is

Amicus optima vitae possessio – A Poem

I went to see a wise woman.images

She looked at my palms

and read my cards.

She burned incense

and chanted, and asked

if she could read my aura.

I was anxious during all this,

the question I uttered

still burning my tongue.

Then the wise woman was still.

She looked at me and smiled,

one that reached her eyes

and filled me with a calmness

that I had never experienced.

“Well?” I asked her. I tried

to keep the impatience

out of my voice.

“What did the gods say?

Will I find love?”

She regarded me for a moment,

that smile still playing upon

her lips and dancing in her eyes.

Her smile deepened

and she nodded sagely.

“Amicus optima vitae possessio.”

Her voice made the words

sound like music. I didn’t understand.

“What does that mean?

Will I find love?”

She nodded again and uttered

the same words:

“Amicus optima vitae possessio.”

I left her feeling distraught

and unsure of myself.

I was ready for love,

open to the possibility of it,

but the wise woman’s words

meant nothing to me.

I found myself in front

of a bookstore filled with

old books. I went inside

and instantly found myself

calmed by the smell of

old parchment and ink.

There was a man behind the counter.

I asked him what the words meant,

what language they were in.

“Amicus optima vitae possessio…”

He mused. He went to a bookshelf

and pulled down a large volume

of Latin verse and terminology.

Flipping through pages

that sounded like the wind.

“It means ‘A friend is

the greatest treasure of life.'”

I stood there for a moment,

processing what he’d told me.

“That doesn’t make sense.

I asked the wise woman

whether or not

I would find love.”

The man thought about

this for a moment. Then

he regarded me with eyes

that sparkled like the wise woman’s.

“Well, do your friends love you?”

I didn’t need to think of the answer.

“Yes. They’re like my family of the heart.”

He regarded me with something

like understanding.

“Then you are very fortunate.

If you are loved, by so many,

why do you seek more?”

I wondered at his question and

how exactly to answer it.

“Because I have so much love to give.”

He smiled at me and it was like

the sun was shining on him.

“Then give it to your friends,

your family. You won’t find love

if you are looking for it.”

He touched my chest where my heart rested.

“Love finds you.”

I thanked him and left the store,

my body lighter than it had been

when I entered.

“Amicus optima vitae possessio”

I whispered  and felt very rich

indeed.

 

* Dedicated to all of my friends who are my family of the heart.  You know who you are. 🙂