Coming Soon! Covidly Speaking – Poems

Surprise!

Coming soon, my new collection of poems! It’s titled Covidly Speaking. Here’s a bit about the book:

The poems written in this collection were written during the first two years of the covid pandemic.

They contain a range of emotions including confusion, anger, pain and upset, yet they also contain light, love, hope and laughter. Life during the covid pandemic has been about finding balance, despite the imbalance of the world.

Go on a journey and discover how hope and love can conquer even the darkest of times. Sometimes, even when we’re alone, we’re stronger together.

I’m so excited for this release. It will be the first collection of new poems in two years. The poems contained in Covidly Speaking brought me solace and joy when there has been so much darkness in the world. It’s my hope that the poems do the same for you.

This will be a staggered release. I’m releasing it in ebook first and then in paperback format. Stay tuned for news about when the book is available!

The World That I Carry Within – A Poem

There are worlds

we have discovered together,

travelling to distant lands

full of unknown terrains,

our hands joined

and our hearts as one.

There are also worlds contained

within me now that are brighter

than they were before,

all because of the love

that you have given me.

I wanted to give you some way

in which I could show you

how your love has changed me

and how it has formed new roads,

new pathways within my body.

Standing before you,

I’ve opened myself up like a book,

pulled back the covers of my skin

so that you can see the pages

that I’ve been able to write upon.

You can see where the dark forest,

which took up so much of me before,

has made more room for areas

that are bright with new growth and hope.

My light from within is shining

down upon the water and grass

that has taken root there.

If you look beyond the mountains,

you can see the worlds

that come from my imagination,

full of stardust and magic,

waiting to be discovered.

Just as you’ve changed the world around me,

you have also shaped the world

that I carry within.

Every time you tell me that you love me,

my internal world grows a little bigger

and the worlds

that we can discover together

become endless.

The Weight of Water – A Poem

I’ve been trying to make sense

of a world that no longer speaks

a language that I understand.

All around me,

there seems to be nothing

but chaos and havoc,

mayhem and unsettled hearts.

Even as I look at the world

and try to understand

what it is that I am seeing,

it changes again and becomes

even more full of hate

than it was before.

It’s as if I am looking at everything

through a looking glass.

I can see my reality shift and move,

never staying still.

What is happening in the world right now

is abuse. There is no other word for it.

I have chosen to believe

we will heal ourselves after this,

that we will come through the waterfall

into a world that is recognizable

and washed anew from the water.

I dream of freedom, yes,

but not the kind that they want.

I long for the day when I will crawl

out from under the weight,

standing despite the emotions

that want to pull me under the surface,

but I wonder what I will have to let go of

in order to do so.

In the River – A Poem

*For Wonder Mom

When you carried me,

I learned from you

as I swam upon

the river within you.

When you sang,

I learned to use my voice for joy

so that I too could sing

and find my own voice.

When you cried,

I learned how to comfort others

without having to say a word,

much as I comforted you then.

When you spoke to me,

I learned the gift of language,

hoping for the day

that I could tell you I loved you.

When you held me,

wrapped your arms around your stomach

to keep me safe as I floated on the river,

I learned that love could be

as beautiful as a hug

or as simple words whispered

in the comfort of night.

Everything great that I am today

I have learned from you.

You’ve given me my gift of courage,

the bravery that runs through me

runs also through you.

I am a warrior because

you’ve shown me how to be one.

My gift with words is from you.

I’ve knitted together whole worlds with them,

first to lose myself and then to find myself

so that I could bring myself home.

Words are magic that runs through us both.

I learned how to love from you,

to choose kindness whenever necessary,

because it was what you showed me

when I couldn’t defend myself.

I learned from my time in the river,

from words you didn’t speak out loud

but that I could hear on the waves

that surrounded me.

I am at Sea – A Poem

I am adrift on the water

and I try to find me

inside my body,

but I’m no longer certain

that the barriers it held

have stayed in place.

My mind is at sea

in the landscape of myself and

I don’t know how

to call it home.

My spirit is eternal.

It ventures forth,

even when my physical and mental

parts of me

are unsure of themselves.

It shines like a beacon

amidst the dark

so that I can find who I am.

I have ventured deep

into the mountains of my mind and

I have found that piece,

that small speck no bigger

than a grain of sand,

that holds the purest form of me.

I have brought it home

to the shell of me so that it can shine.

I hold it in the palm of my hands,

no bigger than a hope or a prayer.

Looking at its brilliance,

I try to breathe that shine in

so that I can see through

the dark of the water

held within.